Wishes Dreams Hopes ☆彡

Gao Tian Qi

Nickname: Angu
Birthday: Sept 11th, 1983
Horoscope: Virgo
Blood type: A
Nationality: Taiwanese
Birth Place: Yi Lan
Height: 176cm
Weight: 72kg
Shirt no: 09
Tv Serials: MVP Valentine (MVP)

Awards:

2000: HBL
(HBL Gao Zhong Lan Qiu Lian Sai Zhu Gong Wang)
2001: HBL
HBL Gao Zhong Lan Qiu Lian Sai Zhu Gong Wang)
2001: HBL
(HBL Gao Zhong Lan Qui Lian Sai Ren Qi Wang)

Ok, I admit that I am seriously not good in basketball game. I only like to watch how the players play in the court. I watched My MVP Valentine and saw this guy who is a REAL basketball player :] I just love the way he handle the ball and also the way he stormed towards the goal. I couldn't deny that his moves are wonderful. I can never imagine that that are the ways how the players should play. Very good, I shall say. Oh, he also looks good in the drama. I just love the way he act. Very cool and calm, all the time! Except when he saw the puppy and he got terrified. Haha! (I am referring to character) So, why don't you, people who love to play basketball, watch this movie and learn those steps :P I bet you'll play good and look good too. Hehe.

p.s: sorry if I sounded like I am not making sense, I am too tired :/ just came back from work.

korean

the heart

How is it to like someone but he never likes you back?

How is it to give something to someone..

but the response is not good?

How is it to wait for that someone to reply..

but he never did?

I know that each one of us had been through the difficult time when we have to accept “NO” as the answer. No matter how hard you try, you are never good in his eyes. No matter how far you get to change yourself for him, he would never like you more than before. The more you try to know that person, the more annoyed he would be. And worse, you'll get ignored.

When he is sad, you would be sad. When he is happy, you would be happy too but you'd wonder if you're the one who makes him smile. When he is angry, you'd just provide him many advises to calm him down. When he is extremely happy, you wished you'd be the one beside him to share the happiness. When he cries, you wished you could lend your shoulders for him to cry on.

You wished he'd know everything that goes around your mind. You just need to tell him all things that happened in your life. You never fail to reply his text messages or answer his call. You don't want to hang up when it is time to quit talking. You would want to listen to him all the time during the phone call instead of telling your problems. You wanted to let him know how much you cared for him and wanted him to know that you'll always be there for him.

But the only thing you really want him to know is...

you love him

healing

I have been having neck pain for the past few days. I thought that this pain would go away very soon but too bad, it didn't. I had troubles sitting down because my head would feel very heavy. I also had sore throat. I just can't swallow anything or even have the mood to eat. I was very sick.

But last night, I went to care group in Esther's house. It was quite special because we were having Valentine's care group. It's nothing but Valentine's mood. They ordered 2 pizzas from US Pizza. Then, Sister Su Han prepared spagetthi, cucur udang, and 2 drinks. Sister Shin Jie fried the mihun. When all of us arrived, we sat together and we did some introduction. Su Han gave a sweet to each of us. We were to throw it to whoever we want to introduce. Sister Sin Lu introduced me and she kept on guessing what is my favourite colour while Su Han and Shin Jie kept making the "error" sounds. Haha! It was very funny.

After praise and worship, we begun our REFRESHMENT! We sat around the 2 square tables and eat eat! I took the cucur udang although I know it'll hurt my throat but when I eat, I feel nothing. Yey! It was so tasty that I had to have more! Haha! I had the pizzas and the drink. Then we did some sharing. After that, I gave out the Valentine chocolates!!!

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This morning, I woke up thinking my neck would hurt again. I tried to turn left and right but... there's no pain at all! I thought I am tricking myself. So I tried swallowing my saliva to test if my throat hurts somemore. But it is not painful!
I am completely healed! I tried to remember when I prayed for them. All I know that Shin Jie massaged my neck real hard and I felt like screaming in pain (oops!) and that's all! I am so happy that I don't have to feel the painful pain anymore.

Thanks to the Lord!

sick

I was very ill yesterday.

I felt that I'd be off colour when I feel very cold in Lilic. The air conditioner was off. When I got home, I felt poorer. Usually your friends would say that after some sleep, we'd feel better but I didn't get better! My body gets warmer. My brain was pounding very hard. Every inch of movements hurts. I laid my head onto my bed as I sat on the floor. My mum asked me to take the Chinese powdery medicine but I don't want. I tasted it before and I hated it very much. Yuck!

My uncle came by to do some measurements in our bathroom. He saw me. He told my mum to get me to the hospital as soon as possible because he heard that there are 10 people from Malacca who died of Denggi. And he kept telling, "5 days". I couldn't be bothered. It was Supernatural Tuesday. I wanted God to heal me, to prove that He still lives and He is the Cure.

I dragged myself to the bathroom after Jonathan called. After feeling sick for half hour, I finally arrived at the church. I hated being in the car at that moment because the roads were very bumpy and I felt I could just throw up! I walked pass everyone after coming out from the car and headed to the room where Zephaniah slept. Agnes accompanied me. She was very kind and caring. She helped me to get the mattress and pillows. I was very cold but the big cushy pillows are all I have to cover my body.

Sister Shin Jie, Su Han, and Sin Lu prayed for me in the room. Few minutes later, I went to the bathroom and...vomit! It has been a long time since I vomited. I felt refreshed. Then, I felt terrible again. I go to the room once more to take a nap until Bro Peter called for the healing session. There were more than 10 students who wanted healing. Then, the others began to pray for all of us.

A miraculous wonder happened!
There was a deaf and voiceless girl called Julie. Bro Peter prayed for her and after that, she tried to open her mouth to speak. She couldn't say anything, but there's a voice coming out. The people prayed again. They asked her to read out the alphabets and YES, she did it! She can hear too! How amazed Julie's friends would be!

Praise the Lord!

Another astonishing thing happened that night.
Those who got healed wanted to accept Christ.

Bro Peter was amazed and he cried. He said that Jesus Christ is crying too. He showed his happiness through Bro Peter. I am surprised as well. There was an Indian girl who has a hand disease was able to speak in tongue although she’s not a Christian. Her hand is getting better now.
Praise the Lord!

I want to testify that God heals me.
On the next day, I am back to myself! The fever is gone!

I feel much much much better! I can't imagine myself being in that sick condition again. I just can't remember how sick I was and I just laughed when I recalled how worried my friends were. They cared for me and I felt touched. They were all so kind and loving.
Praise the Lord!

Give thanks to the Lord
` He heals

` He is the Cure

p.s: I vomited twice that day. can you imagie how sick I was?

V-Day

What is everyone doing on this Special Day?

Finally the day I have been waiting for is approaching!
I definitely am excited!

Are you?

I have already planned for the Valentine's Day gifts :]

The Groceries:
` Nips + Coco Jelly [yum yum]
` boxes [done!]
` ribbons [gold strings]
` candy-like heart shape [from Livin Cabin]

The Lovers:
Benjamin Care Group
` shin jie
` su han
` wei cheng
` wee kiat
` wei lin
` wendy
` joanne
` wei bin
` ben

Strangers
` andy
` jeffrey
` sin lu
` li lin

total = 13

A brief history on Valentine's Day:

Saint Valentine's Day or Valentine's Day is on Feb 14th.
It is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other; sending Valentine's cards, candy, or donations to charities, often anonymously. It is very common to present flowers on Valentine's Day.

The holiday is named after two men, both Christian martyrs named Valentine. The day became associated with romantic love in the High Middle Ages, when the tradition of courtly love flourished. The day is most closely associated with the mutual exchange of love notes in the form of "valentines".

Modern Valentine symbols include the heart-shaped outline and the figure of the winged Cupid. Since the 19th century, handwritten notes have largely given way to mass-produced greeting cards.

The Greeting Card Association estimates that approximately one billion valentines are sent each year worldwide, making the day the second largest card-sending holiday of the year behind Christmas. The association estimates that women purchase approximately 85 percent of all valentines.

In the United States, the marketing of Valentine's Day has tagged it as a "Hallmark holiday"

and so,
Happy Valentine's Day!!

in advance... :]

Valuable

Morning everyone, I am in the lab right now. Marketing class had just ended. There's something I wanted to ask everyone of you. Hope that you'll give me a response.
Here it is...

You went to a bookshop and get a pen. Your exam's approaching and you need one. Your partner (girl/boy) bought you another pen and said "Use this pen. It'll bring luck for your exam". Exam's finally over. One day, you found out that both of the pens went missing!

Which pen you will feel more upset for because you lose it?

thanks!

I wanna give a big shout out to:
Bro Jameson

for:
`the chocolate *yum yum*
`the happy face when we hung out
`the real stories he shared
`the help he gave when I almost get a summon ticket >_<'' `the smiles whilst listening to MY stories
`the care he showered upon me

and lastly,
`for the T.I.M.E he spent with me babbling about stuffs
*includes Westlife, McFly, sentimental songs, the blur waitress in Fulltank, the girls whom we think are whores, fashion*

but not least,
`for the "compliment" that I talked like Lindsay Lohan

Lindsay Style

I wanted to know what has gone wrong with Lindsay Lohan so I went to read the latest news about her using Google.co.uk. And I was really happy that she's in control now that she is out of rehab. I was more in love with her when I see these pictures displayed in a Gallery. Take a look at her styles! Awesome :)

Lindsay Lohan changed outfits for the the grand opening of the De Beers Jewelry Store later that night in New York City

Lindsay Lohan goes casual-chic for her appearance on MTV's Total Request Live, June 22

Lindsay arrives for a taping of "The Late Show with David Letterman" in jeans, June 21
`` she's so fit, isn't she? gosh..

Lindsay changed outfits for her appearance on "The Late Show with David Letterman," June 21

Linsday tries pearls and a tailored jacket for the premiere of Hostage, March 8
`` i just love this style, the outfit rocks..

Lindsay Lohan wears a low-cut mini at an MTV Movie Awards after party last year

Lindsay arrives at Lydia Hearst's 21st birthday, Sept. 16

Lindsay Lohan pairs a crisp white jacket with red lips at the opening of "Social Hollywood" on June 27, 2006

Lindsay Lohan attends the Cartier And Interview Magazine "Celebrate Love" party, June 8, 2006

She's drop dead g.o.r.g.e.o.u.s <3

photo credit: Getty Images

a Lover

Hello guys, how are you doing? Sorry for not updating my blog. Today I've something to write. Keep on reading...!

I realized that how important it is to talk with your own family members, no matter what things you want to share. It really is important that you must have a good relationship with your parents and your siblings. It is vital to have a good communication with them, because they're the only ones who stand beside you when you're in need of someone.

My relationship with my mother wasn't good. I tried to tell her things but the words couldn't come out, as I was afraid of what she might say. I'm terrified of bad feedbacks because I'd lost the mood to discuss and the things I wanted to share disappear from my mind. That is why most of my friends knew what's going on but not my family. I'm certain that the news would get to them but it's better than I tell them directly.

Well, if you think what I was doing is right, probably you're doing the same and I could say that it's wrong! It's never right to put your family aside. Don't you believe that things will definitely be alright between you and your family if you put faith that everything will be fine? I never thought that my relationship with my mum would be fixed. I never thought of it. I do blame her for certain things. I couldn't get what I want. I was a very selfish person last time *i am still a little now...sigh* I used to hide things from her because I know what she'll say. I never let her know with whom I hung out with last year or where I went with my friends. She was very protective of me! And she is still thinking that I am childish.

Close to the end of the Pungent Year '06, I noticed the difference. I began to open my mouth to talk to her! Well, the first thing I shared with her is about my soon-to-be boyfriend *who is now my ex* She told me some thing that has been stuck in my mind like for a long time, which is "Treat all of them as your friends first and see if you both will get anywhere".Too bad I didn’t listen to her and see where it got me. It's certainly best for us, youngsters to open our small ears and listen to their great advice. Now, I was so close to her that I want to pick glue and stick us both together. Last week, I was having my semester break and I go to work at 1pm. So I'd be free in the morning and usually that's the time for her to lepak. So, whenever I heard her coming out from her room, I'd move a little bit. And when she checked on me, I'd look up at her and ask her if she's going anywhere.

I'm really happy that God has made me close with my mum although I never ask for it. I really appreciate what she has done for me and I'm trying my best to make her happy so that she won’t be upset anymore.

p.s: my sister told me that a customer in the shop kept praising my mum because she has a nice smile. nice eh? and a friend of mine said that her smile is dead gorgeous too :)

Monday work

I did not talk as much as I had with the staffs on Monday. It was unusual because usually my mood will change fast. I kept my mouth shut the whole 7 hours excluding when I was being asked. When one customer called me, I did not respond. I was dreaming as I stood there. But luckily I heard her calling "Miss" again. I felt so ashamed and my supervisor got irritated. She didn't show it but I know that serving customers well is her first priority.

I don't have any sales for the whole 6 hours. This won't be an issue because I'm a part time worker. I let the full time worker to earn the commission. But I told God every second that I want to serve just one customer who'd buy something from the boutique. At 7.10pm as I noticed, a customer walked in and tried the shoes. She spoke to me although my friend was standing at my 2o'clock who is pretty obvious to look at. The customer's nice and I felt at ease when she wants to try on another side of the shoes. I brought it to her and she’s happy with it. I put the shoes on the counter whilst she tried a blouse in the fitting room. When my friend asked about it, I wasn't sure if the lady wants the shoes. I felt pretty silly. When she comes out from the room, she said she wants the blouse. I quickly asked her if she wants to buy the shoes. She nodded and I folded the blouse.

After 30 minutes of serving the customers, I went back to the place where I sat earlier. Finally I served some customers, I thought. Then, I realized that God had answered my prayer. I am slow at realizing things. Haha! I kept thanking Him. I helped the other workers to gain sales because it doesn't matter how many sales I can make. Either I'll help them to serve the customers or let the supervisor to key in their names with my sales.

When I first started working there, I felt angry towards those who shoved in. I want to serve from the moment they walked in till the second before they stepped out. I always wanted to compete with the workers there. I was selfish. I am happy when I have the sales but I got upset when the others have. But I have changed. I cared for those who stole my customers. They're earning an income. I'm only gaining some pocket money to buy books, so I am thankful that God has changed my ways. Now, I feel happier walking in the boutique and the time when all of us sat down together and chat. The bald guy from the phone accessories shop would always walk in and ask in Chinese, "Got party ah?"

my dearest colleagues

Till Death Do Us Part

Till Death Do Us Part

A friend of mine told me few minutes ago about the tsunami which is heading to Sarawak. I was shocked to hear the news and hopefully that she'll be safe. She sent me a text telling us if she died, er...I don't quite remember what it is already but it really surprised me. She has such low faith in herself that she'll be safe and I seriously need to pray to God about this. I just hope that whatever in His plans don't involve my friends whom I love a lot. It is painful to see your loved ones died. I had a friend whom I love a lot but don't really talk to her because we're not in same class since Form4 or even hang out together, passed away days before the SPM result is out. Sometimes, I'd get pissed off by the way she sometimes act in front of me. But I love her and I never say anything to hurt her feelings. When I get the news that she got into an accident that damaged her brain, I was in total shock.I couldn't imagine that someone so happy-go-lucky like her died so early.

I couldn't see her in the hospital. I couldn't even attend her funeral. But there's nothing I could do. I send some messages to a friend to tell her when she was still in the hospital. My friend said that she shed a tear when she told her. I was really touched and cried once more. I cried many times thinking why does she has to go. I always asked myself and kept thinking about her death and I just couldn't imagine that a friend of mine died. Many of you have experienced the death of your dad/mum or someone you love so much. But it was my first time and I felt it's like unacceptable. We always blame the person who did the crime or God, Himself.

As I say this, I truly regret that I didn't spend some time with my friend. It was holiday time and I just neglected the thought of hanging out with my friends. I don't know what's wrong anyway. I have the last picture of her which I took without her knowing. She was smiling so happily and no one could predict that the accident would happen onto her.

p.s: Aneroxia KILLS? let me try and I'll tell you when I'm done... haha!

When God doesn't Answer Your Prayer

Currently waiting translation for:

I have the Chinese version of this book, given by LeYu who doesn't know who am I or even know that I'm a banana. Haha. We were supposed to exchange gifts on Christmas day in Noah's house but I went back early. He came later so he doesn't get a chance to see me. But I met up with him on the next Sunday Service to thank him. He said that he went to the shop to get the English version but it's not available so I have the chinese version. It's really pretty because of the colour and the meaning :) hopefully Shin Jie is able to translate everything to me.

p.s: thanks to Bro Jameson who gave me a keychain made of wood and the bookmark *with 3 puppies on it*. very cute! hope you've a happy life being a pilot! all the best :)

p.s: well, according to a pal, he thought that I've no heart to fall in love again *read the post before this* and I agreed. Last year was filled with bad relationships so this year, I don't want to play anymore. I want to be serious. Yes, I am young but I don't like to get involve in many relationships already. Talking about maturity. Haha. So, stop playing, Fiona!

Activate 353 Days of 2007

Activate 354 Days of 2007

OK! I admit, only 11 days of this very New Year and I already started to lack in my spiritual level T__T Usually towards the end of each year, I’d be very energetic to plan for the New Year’s resolutions and also the things that I want to do for that whole year. These are what I didn’t achieve for the past few days:
` read bible
` house chores without mum asking me to do
` kind to my brother
` NOT falling in love again
` avoid temptations!

This is not good! I’m supposed to be good as it is mentioned FIRST and a good student mentioned FOURTH in my New Year Resolutions. These are the new things that I did:
` clean room
` pick clean my bed
` arrange my clothes
` plan my budget
` appreciate friends + give support
` top up only when due date approached
` go work early + less burbling on people
` less SMS-ing

These are not mentioned in the list of resolutions because I know that as I grow, I’ll learn all the moral values! Yea, I remember. We were FORCED to memorize the Moral Values when we were in high school and there are 118 sub values for 16 main values *pulls hair* or else you’ll fail in Pendidikan Moral exam. Ha! But once you hand up the answer sheet, the values are automatically erased from your memory *faster than the speed of light!* and you absorb new things by memorizing Britney Spears’s “Oops! I did it again” or Christina Aguilera’s “Genie in the Bottle” lyrics. You’d never forget to throw away your cabbage-like Moral Values notes. Some of you may still have it. Why? How come?
1. you never use it because always forget to bring to class
2. you used expensive markers *blue, green, pink, orange, purple, yellow* to highlight
3. you forgotten that you have it and you just left it there

Then, come the second year where you’ve to take Pendidikan Moral and memorize the 118 sub values for 16 main values and use brand new 50cent coin for the notes *you’ll have the balance of two old 10cent coins*. It takes you 6 months to memorize the definition of each moral values and only 5 second to make them disappear forever and ever and ever and ever and…

This is life. People want to make sure you understand the meaning of ‘Saling faham-memahami’. As what ‘I Not Stupid’ star, Terry’s mother said, “This is for you own GOOD!!!”

`` See how fast I get distracted from the topic? Everything just linked together.

Just So You Know

I wish I could just put the video here for you to watch it but this thing never can support it. But, let's get to the lyrics :)

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know
I shouldn't love you,but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

Oooh

Can you feel the words are torturing the mind of the soul who's going through this situation? It's really hard to let go of someone you love so much but if God allows, you can be back together... Here's the link to watch the video-
Just So You Know

p.s: i feel like crying as i watch the video. it's really sad..

Today is January 9th, so...

Today is January 9th 2007, so...

Hey everyone...

I am so happy that I'm having my holidays now.

Well, it has been a long time now that I taste the holiday 'spirit'. No, it's not the kind that you felt on the 1st week of class. It is the "HOLIDAYS for 3 whole weeks!!! YEYYYYY!! SO, what do I want to do now?" feeling. I completed 2 exam papers on Jan 3rd and 1 paper on 6th.. then, here I am, goyang kaki and online. I really have no idea what to do for these 3 weeks of holiday. I thought of working with my Godpa in Kluang but he hasn't tell me if I could work with him since.. *calculating..* few weeks ago! Usually when my friends told me that they have 3 months holiday, I will be so happy for them and started to complain to have holidays now because it's a loooooooooong holiday! BUT when I think again, it'll be a very BAD holiday because if I have nothing to do, I'd probably stay home and rot.

By the way, I want to tell you that I was really stunned when I found myself writing a lot of things during exam. I didn't know that whatever I read in the morning for Operations Management came out in the structure part! I was jumping with joy *no, I didn't really jump* I was very happy because it can help me to score a little. Um, it's only for one question. The other 2 is calculations. I was sad when I couldn't complete the calculations. I thought I remember but I only remembered that I glanced through that part in the notes. Grrr...! But never mind. If I ever fail for this, I shall work hard for the supplementary paper *though it's much harder* and I won't let people to look down on me. I should have studied the calculations part. Hm, I thought it'd be easy but it's never easy in education :) So hopefully none of you copied me. Haha...

Downfall by TRUST company
(rating: *****)
I heard this song few years back through Yahoo! Music and I fell in love with it at once! I like the tune and the singer's voice. It is nicely blend and it is PERFECT! I never forget this song :)
*Alex hates it though*

Sorry's Not Good Enough by McFly
(rating: *****)
This is the latest single with Friday Night (the soundtrack for A Night At The Museum). This hit surprisingly only hit no#3 but the boys didn't expect for a no#1 either. This song is touching and the video clip is very good as well. Click here to watch it. Hope you all love these 2 songs!

Krwlng by Linkin Park
(rating: *****)
This is the song that I love so much out of this album. There is also a track which is alike as this which is Track 01 - Opening. Besides this, I also love P5hng Me A*wy, Wth>You, and By_myslf. The best remixed album.

This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race by Fall Out Boy
(rating: *****)
This is a GOOD song! After Dance Dance, I bet these guys have already been making great tunes for their fans! Their album, Infinity on High would be coming out soon so watch out for it!
p.s: FOB will be coming to M'sia either this or next year.

Pains and Temptations

2006 wasn't the best year for me. When I started to write this, I remembered every single thing that occurred this year. All of them taught me something new, something I never know but I wished that I knew it earlier. I was immature and was still new to a lot of things. I find it appalling because I am already 20 but still acting silly. I do think and act sensibly at times. I am happy when people said that I am mature. As I've said above, you must show appreciation to your pals or else they'd think that you're not appreciating them. I wasn't mature in friendship and my friends are mostly taking care of me instead of both sides. I was not exposed to the Golden Rules of Friendship so that's why I made mistakes all the time, without realizing them (until she told me that people are testing/observing me). I thought nothing had ever happened and no one told me that I was a bogus. Probably I do notice it myself but I felt that it's just me. It's not that I wanted to be one. I wanted to please the other party so I agree to all things she said and laughed out loudly when the talks aren't witty.

I was not naïve about BGR. I've experiences with different guys but mostly, the relationships end up in the same way. When one party is not satisfied with the other party, nothing good could come out. When one party doesn't realize the mistakes, the same thing happened, no things will be fine. So as I was saying about BGR, I dated with a couple of guys and had a new relationship within a month. I thought I was ready for it so I give it a try. At first, I was too scared to have a boyfriend because my mum forbids me too but I learnt that she doesn't have to know anything. But I told her once I have confirmed my second half. It doesn't go well because he paid less attention to me. The rest was the same and I don't want to explain it here. The main point is that I have been fooling around a lot and even cheated some alien through text. It was weird but I had fun. I was terribly guilty and you don't know how much I feared God afterwards. I truly wanted to change but I sinned again.

Then, to my responsibility as a university student, which was very terrible. I wasn't aware that I am derelict! Whenever I felt like going to classes, I went. When I feel like going for exams, I'll just sit for it. If I fear about anything, I'll just stay in bed and lied that I'm sick! That was the first but it'll be the last as I do not want to runaway from everything again. Some of you are able to get away from the things you do not want to stumble upon without facing any consequences. But God brings me to plight whenever I did that. Don't you think it's funny? The troubles I was given are worse than the ones I'm supposed to face. My attendance in class was very bad. I don't know what came up to me; I failed two semesters in a row. Yea and the effect, the company who gave me the loan, stopped giving me money until I passed my semester. I've to use my own money which gave a lot of burden to my family, to get unbarred from exams and registrations. I told you that the plight I've to face is WORSE.

There's only one thing that I felt wonderful during 2006 was the moment I rededicate to our Lord Jesus Christ. I am a Christian (by sinner prayer, not baptism) and I thought I was a proper Christian but I wasn't. I have not given a proper education on the Lord. I haven't been to church ages ago and I only went to St Peter's once in a while with my pals. I pray to Him only when I feel like to. I didn't have the eagerness to know Him or even have a close relationship with Him. I never thought this as a bad thing. I only know that with good works, I'll go to Heaven. But honestly, I have a kind heart and willing hands, I thought that they're enough. There were times that my spiritual level is low thus I skipped care groups and prayer meetings. I do get some telling off from my shepherd but I continued to be like that. It was influenced by my physical body moods.

Worst of all, I am a bad daughter. I was a lazy girl. I wouldn't do any housework unless I am told to. No matter how many times my mother and older sister advised me, I'm still the same. I never do chores. But there are certain days I do them because I've the mood to do them (that is of course when no one's home). I tried to do but my moods keep telling me to go to sleep or play with the computer or do something else! I just get distractions a lot when I wanted to do something good. I'm not good at managing my temptations. But you know we turn to temptations because they give us relaxation and fun!

These may not seem very bad compare to some girls. I thank God they are not. I have lesser thoughts about it and relationships. I just want to be close to God. Now, I learnt more things and whatever I think is the contrary. I am glad that I'm saved now. I have a shepherd who is really an angel. And by the way, I go to church every Sunday morning. I used to hate waking up early but I love it now! I joined every activity the church held. I wanted to be involved more in church like being an usher and also in the worship team. I wanted to play the drums so badly that now, my shepherd promised to teach me. I was having difficulties hitting the simplest beat. But by God's blessings, I hope I can do it! After having a few moment of reflecting back the year of Pains and Temptations, I want to achieve my resolutions for 2007. I know that one day I could just forget about my resolutions and do whatever I want, but this time, I pray to God that he'll protect the future me and I want to promise to Him that I will do what I said I will. *remembers to put that in prayer*

I'll be having my Operations Management and Information Systems exams tomorrow, one in the morning and another at night. My French test will be on Jan 6th. I hope I can pass all these. I've been studying very hard. Hopefully God answers my prayers. I hope that you guys can pray for me, as I'll help you, to achieve good results!

Good Luck in your EXAMS and all the best in the New Year!

A Troubled Grandma

"Thou shall not follow the steps of this very man."

My grandmother who's in her 60s already bought a bus ticket back to Singapore and was on her way to the door of the appointed bus's entrance when a young man confronted her. He told her that he wanted to have sex with her. My grandmother doesn't know how to speak Malay so she walked away. But he approached her again and she boldly slapped his face. He got angry and punched her face before walking off. She quickly took her slipper and threw it at him. He turned and punched her another time. This time, her nose and mouth bleed. But she kept on chasing after him and wanted to throw the slipper again but she fainted. The man wanted to kick her when he came nearer but the nearby people came to the rescue. They hit the unspeakable man and shouted, "Orang tua you pun mau kacau!" Then, that man went to a chair and sat there quietly. The other spectators went to buy some ice to stop the bleeding on my grandmother's face. My mother assumed that the man didn't say anything because he's afraid that the people might beat him again. My grandmother went to the hospital for check up without anyone's help. I'm not so sure about the next part but she said, "I told the nurse I can't see the doctor but the nurse was saying that the doctor's right there. I can't differentiate who is the doctor because everybody in the room is wearing white" and "If I can speak Malay, I will tell that man to sleep with his own mother because I bet his mother would be as old as me."

I'd like to thank those who were brave to help my poor grandmother. But one funny part is that she couldn't recognize the man’s face. I got confused because this incident happened on the day before she went to do report. I thought the people nearby called a police to capture that offensive man. But first, I'm thankful her teeth are not fractured. I hope that every one of you take precaution no matter where you are. This immoral man dares to beat my grandmother up in Melaka Central where many people are around. So please take care.

and oh, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Xmas

Part 1
Hope of God Malacca had Christmas Sketch practise on the Dec 23. Everyone was there from 1pm until 1am to practise the sketch. Some stayed behind until early in the morning, I'm not sure of the time but when I turned up on the next day, the hall is wonderful! The decorations are up and also the balloons. I was delighted to see such beauty in the church but later on, a few thoughts came into my mind about it. The balloons shouldn't be in 4, the Christmas word should paste in the middle, the 'house' should be behind a little bit, the keyboard should removed from the stage because it's taking a big place and others. But somehow I managed to amuse myself by taking a picture with the Christmas tree. Ok, so here are the pictures of the people who act in the sketch and also some candid shots.

david and jason fixing the burnt light

lazarus, phillip, jenn (as Abraham's wife)

carson (as angel), wee kiat (as Lot)

jenn

carson (yea, with his sword)

wee kiat, jonathan (as an Angel too), carson

carson, jonathan, wee kiat

simpson (Mr Santa), joey (Mrs Santa)

the people of the Second Chance play

the madness!

the prop girls: simpson, sin lu, wendy

the caring heart: jenn, joey

the team: wee kiat, daniel, joey

the candies as door gifts

the fallen ball

Part 2
Sometimes, actions are indescribable. The Christmas celebration (on Dec 24) was beyond belief. I did not expect such energy from the visitors *none of my friends whom I invited show up*! I thought that they'd stand around without moving during Praise and Worship time but they're rocking with all of us. That's the spirit! They were all still energetic when we do that again on Christmas Day! I was rocking too. I don't really sing out loud during that time in Sunday Service but I love to party. So I was enjoying. I love the songs that the worship team played. Although they're not those hits songs the radio station plays, I think they are cool. The multimedia presentation was wonderful and I hope that I'm able to show all of you here. Give me some time to upload it in YouTube.com. Before Praise & Worship, it was Ice Breaking session. We were supposed to put away the nicely arranged chairs to the side to play games! I love the game so much! Everyone was screaming and shouting on top of their lungs for squirrels!

It goes like this: Fire, Hunter, and Earthquake
3 people in one group: 1 squirrel and 2 trees
(trees protect squirrel)
When shout Fire, trees will run around to find another tree to protect the squirrel.
When shout Hunter, squirrels will run to join the other trees.
When shout Earthquake, everyone will run around to find new trees and squirrels.
So, the person who can't find its tree or squirrel has to go to the front and shout Fire, Hunter, or Earthquake. It goes on until the game master decides to call it off.

Here are the photos (from the beginning till the end) I took during the Christmas event in Hope of God, Malacca. I have not uploaded the sketch pictures (plus other pictures) because I want to take clearer photos from JK. Mine are too blurring because the camera I'm using does not support movement thingy. People do move on stage so, there are no nice photos for that except for the doves and colourful balloons!! Ha! p.s.: after taking the second last picture, I was asked "What's wrong with you?" in a polite, playful but sarcastic tone. Don't worry, you'll find it out after browsing through the pictures :] sorry if this is making your computer lag, I hope that you're able to view them all *come back next time if you can't view all now*. Don't miss out any because who knows that you know one of the 'mad' people. Enjoy!

before it started...