Shockedddddd! Oh wait, nah...

I drove pass that housing area and I met him. Dang! I never thought he'll appear anywhere in front of me. Or at that time. I wished I've never used that road. Although I could reach mum's place faster - I think. SIGH! The other day, when I was waiting in Ixora, he came to my car and smiled. Oh well, I can't deny that he got a nice smile - which can turn into an evil one, if he didn't stop smiling! I was kinda shocked why he would have the GUTS to come to me and smile. THANKFULLY I was in the car! Why? At least it didn't encourage him to talk since we weren't close anymore. He chose to stop the communication. But that also means whenever he felt like saying HI, he would. OHHHHHHHHHH wait! Something just came into my mind. His image. He wasn't looking into my eyes. I was practically staring at his face. OMG! So that's how it works? He couldn't even face me. Probably he stopped by because he thought I'd notice him.. I didn't know that it was HIM. I thought someone else just walked by to campus! Just like when you were texting your friend in the car and you felt that someone's walking pass by you. And you don't know who. Like that lar.

Right after that, it got me so emotional.
I remembered those time with him from the beginning - when he brought me to the riverside in town and asked "Can I hold your hand?" like, super many times.. And I rejected. We even walked around town. We went to Jonker Street. And there was one time he slipped his hand into my pocket to hold mine.. Hahahahaha! This is sweet okay. I don't want my friend to know that I'm in any relationship so I was trying to avoid.. Come to think of it, it was really sweet. Then, he brought me to Muar and KL few times. I really enjoyed the trip - very much.. But during the journey to Muar (second time there), he actually raised his voice and shouted at me. For some reasons, it was so hard for me to talk to him. I kept silent all the way and it hurts him. For the Nth trip to KL, I faced the same situation. We got into a fight on a Saturday night before attending a Youth service in his church. When we came back to the house, he actually went crazy and wanted to kill himself - or rather, attract my attention. So I couldn't go to sleep till 3am! I was trying to stop him from doing stupid things. I succeeded. On the next day (Sunday), we met his parents for lunch. The plan was to celebrate his birthday. But I guess that we weren't in a good mood... :(

He told me that he never brought his ex to meet his parents. He told me that his parents liked me when they invited me to visit them in their new house. His ex told me that he has never lent her any books. He told me that his ex is FAT. He told me that he wanna get married with me. His ex told me that he told her he wanted to get married with her. Out of these six things, only THREE truth and TWO remain unknown. She isn't fat! Look how fit she is! Hmph!

Ah well, good and bad memories we had.. Regretted that he had to go through too much "downs" with me because I was immature in handling relationships. Especially with the one with high emotional status.. It wasn't even love that brought us together. It was his attractive English accent and also his charisma. But nay! to his judging mentality and grumbles.

Sorry, MYNB, you aren't the person I wanna say "I DO" to. Although I was ecstatic you wanna marry me. But be glad because I'm not the one you ever want to live with. I don't wanna pretend to be okay when I am not - for the sake of avoiding your sympathy and your judgements.. :)

I didn't edit this picture! It so happened that when I posted this picture in my previous post, the picture appeared like that.. Hahahaha!

By the way, MYNB, she told me that you've problems.. Some problems..
I hope your "virtual" girlfriend is able to help you out. You know, my friend told me about the girl whom you're going out with. And the same girl you said you've no relationship with..

Here's a last message to you:
Stop trying to do God's job. You're not any good at it.

Somehow,

I still remember this vehicle's number plate "WSG 9845".
Like a number carved into my brains.

To get rid of it, just need to have amnesia.

You have done SO much for me..

MYNB,
Oh, how I wish I could write your name. You do know how much I adore it.
You left a scar that can never be undone by my own strength..
So if you think being strangers would be the best but last option for you&I,
let's do it.

With no regrets.. *salute*

Goodbye, my ex-lover..
Goodbye, my friend!

Let it be our permanent December!








p/s:
It was a complete picture when I see it in the folder. I planned to pixelate his face only.
But when I opened it, it turned out to be like that. Surprise! Surprise!
I was really shocked. It wasn't some magic or something lar..
But it is already "edited". Hahahaha! Save my time.

And I have been wanting to post this picture up. Okay, it's because I look nice here.
Hahaha! But because he is there, that's why I dare not to put it :/

X's Files

I am unsure if X lies as you have told me.
A great actor as you have said.
I am not siding for you. Nor X.
Hate me if you want. I didn't care.
Our conditions are different. We're dealing with GOD here.
So here's to nothing.. *cheers*

All I ask for is you to help X. X hates me. I can't even fix X. So if can't help X, X'll go for another sheep. X can't help ownself.

X's mindset has been like that ever since the childhood.

X always thinks that I'm stupid. I never wanted to hurt the feelings because X never accepts my point of view. That's why I'd rather shut my mouth.

I believed that this had happened. Most of the time I did shut my mouth. Heh.. But kena marah jugak. It is weird how one couldn't understand when another party shut his/her mouth. I thought they'd be smart enough to understand.. Damn torturing that time. I mean, why would someone keep asking the same Q when the listener is feeling so stressed up and couldn't answer back?

But X mindset doesn't accept that fact. "I'm always right, you're wrong". That's why in the end I got abused for trying SO HARD to help X realize the problems.

Because of minor things, X could make it very big.

Yes. Agreed fully - after few weeks.

Help X in a way by making X be more open for own mistakes and let X change.

X is not open for the truth.

So many people speak to X about the same thing. But end up, whatever X has said, I thought it's all my fault. All the while, I have been thinking that whatever X said is true. But actually, it wasn't. The words X has spoken, pulled me down and down. It kept me away from the ones who actually are telling me the truth..

Thankfully, by God's grace, I was pulled back.

As I have told you earlier, I don't trust you.
I didn't trust X that time too. Weird? Yea..
But when I started to trust X, things began to crumble.
How great isn't it?

X might find another sheep. I don't know.
But I believed that X is only loyal during the relationship period.
Satisfy X's desire. After that, X is gonna go hunting

;)

I couldn't write anything that X has said.
I don't have a good memory. But all I know from X is this:
"Fuck You!"
Hahahahahaha! Don't you think it is sad that all X could say is that?
Honestly, I got influenced. When I am angry, I'd say that.
But I will cut it down straight away..

I know this post won't offend you in any way.
Only you&I knew what is going on.
This will stop here. I am not passing this on to another sheep.
It is not that I do not care, but every thing will be the same in the beginning.
The sheep would not listen to my words.
But I hope that X's next sheep would be smarter.

X stayed away from my zone. I am glad enough.
I am allowing God to handle X and whatever X might do.
I am incapable to do anything when X never allowed God to intervene.

Have a great day, "Bitch Unknown Here"!
Remember that it is the title of your FB message to me?



p/s:
Deareast X,
You have done enough! to my beloved ones.
Tell me that you love Him, I will slap you.
Don't you ever say that and hurt His children, or badmouthing His appointed leaders!
We are all imperfect, as you've pointed out. But your words did not edify the church.
Please show respect to your leaders, despite how young/old they are.
My friend trusted you more than she trusts me now..
If you break her heart, I will break you.