2 Posts A Day

and that shows how BORED I am.

Forgive me for my rantings.

But dear BLOGGER and readers,
You are my only listeners. Haha!

Babe's not even online to hear my bullshits. :(

2nd Week

I am so freaking tired. Or probably restless. Or lazy?

I don't know. I just felt all these stuffs I am doing giving me no benefits.
But I am gaining something.
But I am losing a lot. I hate it when I lose my strength.
Cos I'll be very very tired. Very very restless. Very very lazy.

Answer to the all above.

I don't know. I might be complaining because I am worn out.
But I am glad that tonight, I'm gonna be free a little bit.
I have plans to surprise Jackline at her home.
But sadly, I forgotten to bring her clothes I used for cycling 2 weeks ago. Sigh.
So freaking useless lar my brains. My memory's getting worse.
Either degrading or just lazy to think.. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :(

I downloaded a few games in my phone.
Because I was freaking bored during the roadshow.
Seriously freaking bored. And I couldn't stand the boredom.
So I downloaded kiddish games like Prom Night dresses (to dress up a girl for prom etc).

Yea, THAT BORED!

Any games would do. But no Temple Run or whatever that is popular.

Lol..

And THAT is a LAUGHING OUT LOUD with a brick face. =_=

Roadshow @ Tangkak

Yes, for the whole week I was supporting for roadshows promoting our JINHO beauty products, FRANMIC - as mentioned on the previous post.. It was a blast. Actually kinda difficult also because it was my first time and then many things I do not know.. So along this journey to each Health centres, I was exposed to many different sorts of strategies but same type of old people - friendly and kind. It's very normal that old people are humble, friendly, talkative, etc.. So most of the times I love talking with them. But when I gotta promote the products to them, it was difficult for me. I lack of the convincing spirit. Lol! I suck at sales! Sales and me not a perfect match. LOL!

BUT

Surprisingly I am able to talk with the customers about the goodness of the products. And since I am using the products too, I can enable the "convincing" talk with them. Wahaha! But of course, I don't know if they get to buy lar. Cos I usually will pass the customers to the Sales team. And most of the aunties who did facial with me, they have the intention to buy the products :D It was a wonderful first experience and I am glad that I get to go out to explore the SALES atmosphere..

Oh, we had good food too ;p

Pondering...

On Saturday, me and Mr. A went to the new Jusco in Melaka.

While we were on the escalator, I saw the HONDA displays in the middle court - displaying new cars and there are a couple of salesperson serving the visitors. My eyes immediately looked for the "victim". And my heart pumped so fast as I searched. Well, I didn't find the "victim". And I don't know if I was happy or sad. I don't know. I felt numb. But when me and Mr. A decided to use the escalator with the HONDA view again, my heart pumped fast again.

I really really had no idea what was I thinking, but I made myself believe that I'm just checking out. ROFL. As I would do if PERODUA/TOYOTA around. My action was considered NORMAL then.

Okay.
Done with my evaluation on the heart pumps on Saturday ;p

It was his birthday yesterday.

And I forgotten about it.
His date of birth is my license expiry date this year.

Congratulations, Mr. G..
I never had a chance to celebrate with you. And I don't think I want to celebrate it with you. I failed to be someone who steal your heart in the past. But I am grateful that my future rejected you first.. And I am glad I learnt lessons from our story.

May you grow and be a good man. Treat people right and you shall see that you deserve all goodness and especially true love..
All the best!

The Past

This picture immediately reminds me of GCYL.

Because he was the first boy to ever break my heart into pieces. With his inconsiderate actions and fake promises. I shall not call him "man" because he is a coward and tell lies to end our relationship! Yes, I was pissed off. I was angry. I was frustrated. Base-cally, I was so so freaking upset with him.

You call that a male? A gentleman? Oh wait, I never called him that. I never name him a gentleman? Did I? I don't think I did. Did I ever call him that? Okay, if I did, please, I take it back. LOL! He's certainly not a genty. NOT AT ALL. But I hope he would be for his current girlfriend.. Geesh :(

I don't have anymore feelings for him. NONE. NIL.
But the anger still hid inside of me and sometimes I'll just burst! Sigh...

I gotta forgive! Yes, I gotta forget. No, I couldn't forget it yet. I need time to forget him. I need time to release the pain flowing within my heart.

Last msg for him,
FCK U. FCK UR FCKING ATTITUDE.

Ohhhhh um geeeee :O)

How

I wish I can hurt you like how you've hurt me.

A Freak Whom I Was In ♥ With.

Ever known a guy who flirts to the maxand make it as if he's super innocent and doesn't do anything wrong?

This is the guy:




On the other hand, I'm just a pathetic loser who took everything into heart;every words he said,every move he made,every freaking promise he "swore",every freaking smile he shared..
With "just a click of my finger", he thought he could get that girl! Hahahahaha! He didn't even know that the girl actually rejected him long ago because of his attitude when he was in a relationship with me. I guess I lost the "game" he was playing because he fell in love with a girl. And the place he is working now, seriously knows how he treated me and how he plays with fire.. Just so sadly, I am tooooooo straight that I couldn't think of any revenge - which I don't do anyway.
I am good. I am a good girl. That's what he said! LOL! I know I am. But sir, you prefer bad girl? Who goes to bed with you every night and every second that you could grab? Who could shower you with...With what? MONEY? Or that's another lie you told me.
So dear readers, the life with him is seriously confusing. He could be telling the truth when he shared his life stories about his parents and how his family breakthrough in financial crisis and then... He might insert a lie or two into his sentences.. He even said that "a white lie isn't a lie" and "I'm not lying, I'm just denying". Hahaha! Me and my babe actually LOL at that phrase! When you said "NO" to a "YES" question, you are obviously lying. How could you deny when you actually already lying? Why is it so hard for someone to tell the truth? I am not perfect. I do lie some times.
White lies are minor lies which could be considered to be harmless,or even beneficial, in the long term. I mean he does knows his English! To him, it's harmless and beneficial. Wow!
I lose.. Okay, I really admit that I lose now T___T
*raising white flag*

Oh so Hopeless.

To still inlove with the one who fell outoflove .

I was

Drunk last night.
Yes. Few glasses of Macallan 18years plus Coke.
With my ex company's Business Development Manager.
In Golden Famosa Retro Lounge.
Listening to stories of my ex.
And seeing him walking up and down without greeting me.
Forcing him to drink a glass of Macallan 18years plus Coke.
And a mug of beer.
But he refused to drink the beer because he said "I'm not in the mood". Whatever.
Mission "To Get Him Drunk" Failed.

I'm going there again this Friday with ex-clerk.
Slot Machine Floor having a function "Purple Rain".
Gonna meet my petite Ms. Barbara.
I miss her a lot. But she ain't perfect.
I miss all of them.
I miss.

May Day!

"Enemy" in the office.


:((




But I've explained................ *whines*

Unfairness.

Okay, it's still early in the morning and I got news that FOUR - ONLY FOUR - Twitter accounts of B2ST got verified. Getting verified means a huge thing! And it's not simply verified by the locals but by someone somewhere in the Western country. Hehehe!

So I went to check their accounts. SADLY, my most-est favourite member YANG YOSEOP (the first one) isn't verified. Geesh! I was thinking, he is the one who came up with the idea of "BEAUTIFUL SHOW" as written in my post here, but account not verified? IT IS INDEED A HUGE THING OKAY?? Sobbing... Even the leader of B2ST, YOON DU JUN's account not verified. HOW AWKWARD, you see.. Hahaha! I am crazy getting mad over this little matter. But it means a huge thing, as I've said above ;)

The B2UTYs congratulating the boys. But what the.. I am still unhappy :(

I will wait for the good news when YANG YOSEOP's account get verifiedㅋㅋㅋ

Here's a picture of them during their ET period (debut)

p/s: YANG YOSEOP the one in blonde :/

And during the latest:

p/s: now you know why me loving YANG YOSEOP

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My inferiority towards my own looks creeping in slowly.
From my mind to my heart.

I hope this will stop one day.

Needed Courage

It has been 5 months when I had a strong will to do things right.
But right after yesterday's night "gossip", I failed to keep on my will.

I failed and got discouraged more.

True and so true!

When in anger, see a man by his words, & a woman by her silence. #IHQ

At first, I agreed to this statement.

For me, when I am angry, I'd just shut my mouth..

But come to think of this LATEST generation, girls don't shut their mouth. Instead, they scold, curse, and even fight back - with slappings, hair-pullings, kickings, and other outrageous actions! You see how these new generations girls are? I still prefer the I'll-shut-up-when-I'm-angry period. There was a news circling around this nation regarding the girls who cut their classmate's hair. When I watch that video, yes, I feel like slapping the girl who cut the victim's hair. They were only like, 15 years old? Can't remember. SO YOUNG YET BEHAVE LIKE 30 YEARS OLD MAKCIK SAMSENG! I even wonder how come boys would like girls like these. They're not afraid that these girls would take revenge on them - if they broke up or something. This is not a curse, but just my 2 cents.

Don't you know?
By fighting, you'll get on the news so quick your pride will just vanish in one minute.
The shame that conquers your life: un-describe-able.

I know what is it like to have shame for some things that people don't do.

So, I'm telling ya, girls, PLEASE, be gentle.. Don't shame your family.

The only anniversary we ever had.

February 7th, 2009.

We don't celebrate Valentine's Day.
I asked you Why. But you just said that you don't.
And I never mind about that..

But to think that 2011 is coming closer.
To think that February is just around the corner.. Haihhhh..
I hope that I would be tooooo busy to think about you.

Here are some of the memories I have of you.
The note that I left in your room :)



And the bears?
I gave Weeny to you. I couldn't give you the one my best friend gave me :P
Hopefully you keep it safely in your room.
Since you moved into a new place, I don't know if she's still there.
Though the other day I asked it back from you but received no reply,
deep in my heart, I want you to wanna keep it.
Not for the sake of not wanting me to have it back (due to anger).
But for the sake of.............
*speechless*


Weeny&Jamieson

I really enjoy every moment with you.

I don't know what else to say.
I talked highly about you to others.
Though they disagreed and never know some things about you.
And I always smile....
Just by thinking of you and the ups&downs we've been through..

I regretted for everything I did after our wonderful journey ended.
But at this time, I could just uphold every single heart desires I have unto God's hands. He is after all, powerful enough to bring change.
And He is my dearest Jehovah Jaireh..

I hope in Him that He will provide the best for YOU&I.


:)

Ignorance is Not a Bliss sometimes.

It's tough when someone special starts to ignore you,

but it's even tougher when you have to pretend that you don't mind.

Failure #1

When you talked about me,
do you have the slightest idea of what my responses are?
Do you actually know?

When you mention about him having a girlfriend,
don't you remember how I responded?
Don't you remember?
Don't tell me that you got infected by my memory loss disease?!

Don't you remember the what was your intentionssssssssss all this while?
Uh, hello? Wake up, please?

You point your finger back at me - again. How boring is that?
Again&again you do not see the plank in your eye.
But you can clearly see the dust in the eyes of others!
Don't get it? Go read and quit playing games already! LOL!


Hey YOU!



Stop playing the Blame&Shame game!

Confession!!

I feel myself lighter than before!



Uh, can I proudly declare that I am losing some weight?
Hahahaha! I cannot tell you how much I weight until I reached my target! For now, too heavy lar. Most of my friends said that I lost weight. YES, I did lose some weight over the years. BUT the fats still there! You guys just cannot see it! They're all right there!

I have been skipping dinner.
And that skipping habit caused me to eat less for breakfast&lunch. I think I did something to my stomach. Hahahaha! Poor stomach :( but I cannot stop myself from NOT eating. I have been this way ever since I fell sick after church camp. I am not used to those long rides, you know? I used to have this habit of skipping meals, previously.. THAT was how I lost weight.. If only you see me last time! I was like, FAT!

Chinese New Year is coming anytime soon!
I gotta prepare my body to fit in smaller dress size, right?? So I gotta start dieting now! I believe that I can at least wear smaller size of skirt/pants/shorts? Heh. I cannot do anything with my legs, unless I go to the gym. But God created me with those legs. I gotta appreciate them although in man's eyes: they're ugly. Hmph! :(

All the best to me!
And also all the best to you, if you're dieting now! :))

Oh, take care of your health at the same time.

Our Call History.

To You,



Remember the times we called each other? OMG!
Seriously, it was my first time using it.
And we talked too much. Hahaha! It was fun, you know..

Now, I gotta find someone new to chat with using this free online calls.
Wish I could record those calls. I would laugh out real loud ;)

Those were the days. When two young fellas went crazy over this.
Teehee~