My December, My Memory

Nah, nothing particular about any December by the way.



Just that I've been loving this song to the max because of the emoness and the smoothness of Chester Bennington's voice (: I totally adore his voice. And his team.. There were few rumours saying that they gonna break up. And I was devastated. I didn't know what to do if the band breaks up..

I know Linkin Park ain't my life. But their songs brought so so so so much memories. Becase I remember that I had a best friend who loves LP as much as me too. We shared pics and love for them. She likes the lead singer, while I like the rapper, Mike Shinoda.

But anyway, just an update. Kekeke :))

Pondering...

On Saturday, me and Mr. A went to the new Jusco in Melaka.

While we were on the escalator, I saw the HONDA displays in the middle court - displaying new cars and there are a couple of salesperson serving the visitors. My eyes immediately looked for the "victim". And my heart pumped so fast as I searched. Well, I didn't find the "victim". And I don't know if I was happy or sad. I don't know. I felt numb. But when me and Mr. A decided to use the escalator with the HONDA view again, my heart pumped fast again.

I really really had no idea what was I thinking, but I made myself believe that I'm just checking out. ROFL. As I would do if PERODUA/TOYOTA around. My action was considered NORMAL then.

Okay.
Done with my evaluation on the heart pumps on Saturday ;p

It was his birthday yesterday.

And I forgotten about it.
His date of birth is my license expiry date this year.

Congratulations, Mr. G..
I never had a chance to celebrate with you. And I don't think I want to celebrate it with you. I failed to be someone who steal your heart in the past. But I am grateful that my future rejected you first.. And I am glad I learnt lessons from our story.

May you grow and be a good man. Treat people right and you shall see that you deserve all goodness and especially true love..
All the best!

Pheewwiit!

SUCH TRANSFORMATION! Lol!

Yes,
huge.

And I look super old in the makeup.
Super mature in the hairstyle. Keke!

And guess what? I prefer with my own make up - SUPER EYELINER! Lol! And I prefer my own blouse.. And guess what again? The 2nd baju I wore, is going to be our company's new uniform - ze formal one :O

But anyway, I'm happy cos spent some time to learn some make up skills. LOL! Whee!

BLESSED SAT-DAY! :)

US Pizza

Weirdly named food restaurant in Melaka. And even used the name of America and the Statue of Liberty picture......

But food

WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!



DO.NOT.BE.DECEIVED.BY.LOOKS!

Because they taste nothing nothing nothing nothing special. Or we can call it "NORMAL". Too normal.
Pizza not crusty enough.
Pizza not crunchy enough.
Pizza not salty/sweet/spicy/bitter/sour enough.
Pizza is not "flavourable" enough.
Pizza is not not not not TASTY :(

Not even the chicky wings, or the bread. Oh how failed you all are :'(




But the salad's abnormal! Any dressings for salad taste good :D


So.........
HAPPYFLYYYDAYY'ALL! =D

The Past

This picture immediately reminds me of GCYL.

Because he was the first boy to ever break my heart into pieces. With his inconsiderate actions and fake promises. I shall not call him "man" because he is a coward and tell lies to end our relationship! Yes, I was pissed off. I was angry. I was frustrated. Base-cally, I was so so freaking upset with him.

You call that a male? A gentleman? Oh wait, I never called him that. I never name him a gentleman? Did I? I don't think I did. Did I ever call him that? Okay, if I did, please, I take it back. LOL! He's certainly not a genty. NOT AT ALL. But I hope he would be for his current girlfriend.. Geesh :(

I don't have anymore feelings for him. NONE. NIL.
But the anger still hid inside of me and sometimes I'll just burst! Sigh...

I gotta forgive! Yes, I gotta forget. No, I couldn't forget it yet. I need time to forget him. I need time to release the pain flowing within my heart.

Last msg for him,
FCK U. FCK UR FCKING ATTITUDE.

Ohhhhh um geeeee :O)

Sawadeekap!!

A colleague of mine appeared to work today after a few days of holiday-ing in Bangkok. HONESTLY, I been to Thailand but I never been to Bangkok. How weird is it?

Yes, I went to HAT YAI.
And that is consider quite okay. I miss the food. Especially the dried noodle - taken in hotel - as picture below.. It's simply yummy! It's dry but looks like Malaysia's pan mee (the fat version):



And the view before cooking:



And it is called "Sen Kway Chap"!

It is extremely delicious.. And this reminded me of those instant noodles I had before at home. I didn't realized that it's from Thailand. Lol.. Yes, it's spicy, super thinner than our flour noodle. I think we could try dieting by eating this! Teehee!

Oh yes, I've forgotten.. We eat those dry or with soup. And whichever we like to have them, we should and are super super super encouraged to add chopped dried chillies with them! And THOSE CHILLIES make them tasty and super super spicy! :Q

Yes, now I'm drooling. It's 20 minutes before lunch time. OMG!
I should get them! =D

And the end my post for today, here's a picture for you :)



Hello Mr. Green.
Oh hello Mr. Orange! Back from Thailand?

wow.

Surprises are wow. Really touched.

But depending on who gave them :/

How

I wish I can hurt you like how you've hurt me.

Oh so Hopeless.

To still inlove with the one who fell outoflove .

Hawaiian Night 20.4.12

I was in the office with my colleague waiting for the time to pass. The time is ticking tooooo slowly! The event's starting at 7pm but the clock showed 3pm. I was like screaming in my head because both of us had nothing else to do. We just sat in the office. The girls prepared stuffs for the events. Sigh! We were just .. bored! Then when clock shows 5pm, both of us went to take our dinner packed by the restaurant behind us. The rendang is superb! Delicious!!

After that, I had troubles to whether I should put on my contact lens and make up. I was like, making the toughest decisions ever! So slowly I put on my foundation just to cover the spots. I hadn't make up my mind yet. Slowly, I put on blusher. And then, I was like "Might as well just put on lens!!" So after make up, I went to put my lens. Gosh. I do look okay! LOL! The ARTISTRY (from AmWay) make up kit does work wonders especially the eye bags part :PP

And I put on my green skirt, and my bag and off we went downstairs!


The tree does great things! Like, helping us to hold the necklaces! LOL!
Our Area Manager (dark green) - who is super sweet! (:
Marketing Officer and Customer Service Assistant
The Executive (funny one)!
Security and me at the glass door :P 
Yea, she brought out too many poses! Hahaha!!
Another girl from the department ;)
Mr. and Miss Barista! They're great staffs!! (:

  The two tiny girls at the bar. Seriously they are very small xD

Two pictures of me and my colleagues. When me and my colleague (first picture) got bored of the party, we went up to Lounge to have some drinks. I requested the Supervisor to make some drinks for us. Cocktails. He made Tequila Sunrise for me - obviously without tequila. And then Shirly Temple for my colleague.. Hehehe! I love the drink! Lovely picture aren't they?

And that makes a perfect Hawaiian Night (:

Well, it's the LAST function I'm gonna have in Golden Famosa Club. Because I'm moving on to another new job scope in a new place. I believe that I've gained much experiences here and knowledge too. I hope goodluck and happiness will follow me all the way.. And to do that, I shall let God to lead first. Here ends the night filled with grasses and leaves!And it rained this morning! Very chilly indeed! ^^

Darkened Days

5th day.

Fifth freaking day without texting him ANYTHING!!
And yea, he doesn't text me either!

It's not really suffering though.. Hahaha! At least not as desperate as how I used to be in the first few weeks! And it's not something I should be proud of! Because I misssssssssssssssing him :( and I bet he doesn't miss me as how I am misssssssssssssssing him lor. Sigh. So saddening..

And again I shall state this: Such guys I never believe could exist.


*depressed*

Just Recently..

I was in office on an off day for cleaning,

and I cam-whored.

It was a holiday for us Malaccans! Because Sunday is our Malacca Historical City Day, so we got an off day on Monday! Whee! Absolutely no Monday blues!


ERM,

Actually, I'm out of topic. Just wanna drop by to update.
And to appreciate the silence I have in my office. LOL!
Yea, I turned on the volume yesterday to the max! TO THE MAX! Cos I was alone in the office and no one knew I am here (except the securities) and I just do my stuffs.
HOW AWESOME!!!! :O

Okay okay, just done reading babe's blog. She could put her posts so simple and short! Sweet simple short. I couldn't do that because I like to write looonnnggg posts and end up they're boring :(( and yes, WORDS hard to express what HEART wants to say :P

Alright. It's a Tuesday. And I'm working!

(*O*)

The Last Chance

The second week is not as tough as before.


But I still feel the struggle deep within me regarding him. I can no longer be there with him, and be with him.. Yes, I can say now that it is all his fault for making me like this but no matter what, I still adore him very much. I still like him a lot. I just couldn't understand his situation where he has to dump me just because he has problems. He has problems and yet, he told me and then we couldn't be together.
It's f*ing nonsense.

Yea, maybe if we are still together, I expect him to do more than he should. So he chose for us to be NOT together? I don't get it. He should all the more encourage me to be stronger when I am with him. I know his stories. But so far, how truthful he is to me, I can never know. Probably he is that sorta person who couldn't manage things properly at one time. But so what? This relationship IS a commitment, not an option. After all, we're in it together. Others knew our status. Sigh..

He couldn't understand this. He never will understand. When he explained to me the other day, I heard him telling me that I said something about commitment? I always see commitment as quite important. Once you committed to someone, she/he gonna be there in your life - part of your life. There's no such things as 10% or 20% of love he can give to the partner. That's stupid. When you love someone, you love them as how you love your family. As how you love your friends. There are no such things like portion of my heart is for you etc etc.

Haih... For me not to cry over this, is not something I can choose. I just cry. It comes naturally - no matter how strong I am now or in the future. When someone just breaks you, you cry. The more you keep, the hatred and bitterness will slowly grow in your heart. Why would you let these 2 evil things to conquer your life? I rather let my tears to flow out. Yes, I have a soft heart.
But it is better than the heart kept for revenge.

He shouldn't be stopping me from crying. He should be there when I cry.


GCYL,
If you're reading this post, I'm not keeping any hatred for you.. And of everything that happened. It is really really meaningful when someone would be there for you despite what problems you are having. And I am not in the wrong when I said I love you even more after you explained to tell me.. You did not make me understand why I couldn't be there for you when all these happened. You failed in making me to realize that I shouldn't be there. You couldn't understand what love truly is. You don't know.. You couldn't just say that you're not ready to have a gf when you're f*ing already in a relationship.

I don't know what are your intentions when you told me so, when you told me that you would choose to marry a rich man's daughter in order to settle your problems. Maybe you want to give me excuses so that I would stop looking for you - which you failed to comprehend that I won't. I don't know how you understand how hurt I am. I don't believe you even know it - because if you knew, you'd be there when I cry. Not just f*ing tell me not to cry.

People may see that you're not worth to be with. You may tell me that one day when I wake up, I will realize that all this is not worth it. Well, what can you say when I am already f*ing IN LOVE with you? I don't know WHAT you understand by the two words - IN LOVE! I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU when you f*ing fall out of love. Not out of love for me.. But just out of love.

I wish you could update me everything that happened in your life.
I wish you could just send me one or two texts each day to tell me you're okay.
I wish you could just have the heart to know how am I..



So you see the above pics are for him.. I did them for him.
And that bag, he needs one for his work. You know, I guess that when I do stuffs for people, it is not for the sake of pleasing them. But for THEIR SAKE! The little deeds I did, I do, and I will do are only as blessings... Nothing else.





I hope he understands my intentions.
I f*ing hope he does.

Staffs' PARTEHHH~

So the BBQ was alright. The venue is perfect. SEAVIEW. But sadly, when we started our BBQ, the water surut. Meaning, the seawater level actually decreased and we only saw mud. What an unfortunate sight. We were afraid in the beginning that it'll rain. Because of the cloudy weather and big big big wind! But it went perfectly fine :)

Sadly for you readers, that I couldn't manage to get pictures of the food. I wasn't the one who prepared them. Mr. Chan and his dad did all the preparations. And by the time I brought the food to the spot, it was all kinda cloudy. And during the time we BBQ the wings, I managed to get one picture :/ it is SO DARK! Sad.. Really disappointed though. My lady manager managed to get a few but it is soooo impossible to grab them from her. So shy lar, wanna ask! Hehehehe..

More staffs walked in and started to feast. Here's the list of food we had:
bihun (trans: rice vermicelli)
white rice, corn
chicken wings, sausages, potatoes
prawns, ikan pari (trans: sting ray)
sotong (trans: squid) .. I think that's all (:

Our club's Executive walked in with 3 bottles of this!

The boys went mad lar. All love this. Adding coke and ice to Chivas. Hahaha! I haven't got a chance to taste it. I thought it'll taste bit like Hennessy VSOP. So I don't dare to try. ERGH~ So Arena Manager brought this to me:

So he says (and the Lounge Senior too) that this is ladies' drink. LADIES' DRINK? And it tastes alright in the beginning. I thought I wouldn't get drunk or something. I don't want my face to grow red and hot and my heart pumping like mad. I drank till half glass. And walked into the pub. Sat there and enjoyed the looks for the gorgeous live band (pic as below):


AND THAT WAS WHEN I KNOW MY WHOLE BODY IS HOT. HEADACHE. HEART PUMPING FAST (due to the music and all that). I couldn't take it. So I went outside to sit with 2 others. Enjoyed the lovely breeze and warmth of the weather.. We talked. And I realized that the feelings just toooooooooo much. I could even feel it right now as I write this post. Hahahaha! I am a sucker for beer.......... No wait, I suck at drinking beer :/ so I calmed myself down and tried not to move a lot. I sat and sat

And I heard BIRTHDAY song being played. I looked in from my seat and felt like wow, someone's celebrating his/her birthday. And it's none of my business. I am focused too much on my red face and warm body. Then, the Executive I mentioned earlier, came to the door and sang birthday song. I thought it was just simply a song he was singing.. But then all of sudden, Lounge Supervisor called me to enter. TWO MALE colleagues pulled me into the pub! And everyone just looked at me - and singing too.. The charming men and gorgeous ladies of The Nova Band sang me birthday song. OMG! I was darn darn embarrassed! I don't know how to react. I don't know where to look. And I kept telling myself, "The whole world is singing birthday song TO ME! ONLY!" OMG. Seriously. Darn embarrassed!!! With the cute little cake in front of me.. I was admiring the boys on stage way before they sang to me birthday song.. =__="

It was definitely definitely DEFINITELY a surprise!
Didn't expect to celebrate this early along with many others. Seriously syiok to the maxㅋㅋㅋ Thank you so much, handsome princes and beautiful princesses for singing me the song. Thanks also to the manager of Arena who gave me 5 biji of Feroro Rocher. Muahahaha! Hoping for a bigger present on the real date of my birthdayㅋㅋㅋ

For reservations, please call:
ARENA EQUATIONS SDN BHD
Mr. Chin : 014-621 5555
* He won't bite. He's really really really friendly and nice!*

OH WAIT! I haven't mention anything about Mr. Chan right? Got him, is more interesting. Wait till that part.. Ahhhhh. He disappeared right after putting me and food at Arena. He has to attend one wedding dinner with his family. And I kept telling him that I missed him etc etc. And I want him to come as soon as he can. I don't wanna do the BBQ all alone - not entirely alone though :P

So, he came close to 11pm. Which is SUPER LATE! GRRR! When he arrived, our lady boss and the Executive want him to drink 5 glass of Chivas + Coke + Ice. Yea, they always do that to their own staffs. I looked at him. He could take it, definitely. I was worried for him. I scared he'll just puke because he had some liquor earlier during the dinner. So he drank all 5 glasses. Gosh! These people just lurrrrve to tease him!

So when the food began to get ignored and the others went in the pub for drinks, me with Mr. Chan and bartender was sitting outside. Yes, enjoying the breeze. I felt sooooooo sick. Yes, I gotta puke! I went. Ok, no more story about that.. So we again went to sit there and ALL OF SUDDEN THE LOUNGE SUPERVISOR MENTIONED TO MR. CHAN ABOUT PROPOSING TO ME ON STAGE and they were talking in Chinese. He was drunk! I could tell but he denied that. I was like, WTF! This stage wanna talk about marriage. We just began! And THAT SUPERVISOR took tissues and made rings! I was dead embarrassed. Another supervisor said about if we're happy, we could just get married. And he told me stories about he married late and he's worried of his children etc etc. I was nodding all the way. So, Mr. Chan put the ring to my finger and I WAS FORCED TO PUT ANOTHER RING TO HIS! We had to wear it the whole night T________T my heart was pumping very fast. I am afraid Mr. Chan would take that seriously one day and propose to me all of sudden.. I don't want to face that very day. When I rejected to put on the ring, Mr. Chan's expressions fell. Hahahahaha! It was funny. So I thought he's serious. I quickly play along.

Though real expressions couldn't be replaced with words in my blog, it was a great night. Of course, minus the rings part. That was indeed ridiculous! But with the Lounge staffs, it was awesome. BEST indeed ♥

One night

*shakes head*

Just one night. Just one night in the club.
With so much less customers.
With me talking to one customer.
With that customer talking to me about his personal matters.
With US discussing about some stuffs.

She got mad.
She got mad at him.
Because he did not approach me. To advice me to stop talking.
She got mad because she thought he's protecting me.
She went crazy because....... she's in the bar, not outside.

Girl,
I couldn't help you. I wish I could be in the bar instead.
I hope to see you outside serving, instead..
But the top management did not allow me to enter. They want you to be in there.
I don't know why they want to do so.
It isn't my fault nor anything to do with me.

I'm just doing my job. As a part-timer.

I'm not sorry for what happened.

Twitter Over Limit.

I certainly know and understand how that feels to have your feed spammed with stuffs that you are not interested in. Hehehe.. Sorry! I not gonna try my best to stop spamming about the boys - since you've unfollowed me. JANG! =D

1st CROWN:



2nd CROWN:



3rd CROWN:



Total winning: 3 crowns on MNET COUNTDOWN, 3 crowns on MUBANK

Finally, revealed my favourite members of B2ST! :)
And I love it when they are together.. Kekeke..

Just a Daily Report

Yesterday [Sunday], I wore eye-liner to church - the 2nd time.
So those who walked in will look at me and said my eyes are beautiful..
But trust me, I am still not good in decorating my face!

Brother J said, "Wah, today your eyes look different." And it wasn't just once. He mentioned it TWICE. Sister E said, "Wah! So not used to lar, you wearing make up.. You look different." while sister J said, "You use contact lens arr? You look more prettier!" and another sister F said "Eyes look bigger".

Hehehe! Thanks for all the compliments, but my eye-bags are bigger than my eyes. Perhaps the eye liner made my eyes look bigger, no?





Well, just one short happy post to start my day :))
Cheers!

Hair-cut :D

Back to the basic :D

I am LIKED for weight gain.

Broke record.

10 likes for this.

*faints*


UPDATE:
Apparently, a friend likes it because she likes that Mr Mood. LOL.
It really gives some mood eh? XD
So, that's 9 total.

UPDATE 2:
One more person liked it. So, back to 10.





By the way,

HAPPY MARCH!!