The enforcement officer try to prevent from entering the Dataran's Padang
The enforcement officer try to prevent from entering the Dataran's Padang
Taken with Pudding Camera, Panaroma View ;)
Here's the full album of what happened that day: Sunny Sundays With Pudding
Yea, eating in office is superb. Especially in office like mine? Why?
FIRST, it's because me and my colleague are the only ones in this office - with pantry, toilet and 2 more rooms. We're outside, by the way. With aircond. So is like, HUGE. And our manager don't come up often unless to pray or get something.. And we're like all on our own. LOL! And that leads to
SECOND, we're FREEEEEEEEEEE! Too much freedom though. Haha! And yea, privacy. Although my colleague can see what I'm doing on my computer. She's sitting behind me. But I can't see what she's doing. So I feel sometimes, insecure? But did try my best to enjoyyy when she went out to buy stuffs. So is like, I'm the only one in this whole 3rd floor. Bwahahaha!So yea, we're free like birds. But hey, we do work okay!
Could you even see it in her eyes?
Or even knowing that she cried for many nights?
everything happened.
Truthfully, I am still missing you.
I wonder if you would come back for me because you said "I love you".
We're just like this rose:
we "died".After that, I had troubles to whether I should put on my contact lens and make up. I was like, making the toughest decisions ever! So slowly I put on my foundation just to cover the spots. I hadn't make up my mind yet. Slowly, I put on blusher. And then, I was like "Might as well just put on lens!!" So after make up, I went to put my lens. Gosh. I do look okay! LOL! The ARTISTRY (from AmWay) make up kit does work wonders especially the eye bags part :PP
And I put on my green skirt, and my bag and off we went downstairs!
Yea, she brought out too many poses! Hahaha!!
Two pictures of me and my colleagues.
And that makes a perfect Hawaiian Night (:
Well, it's the LAST function I'm gonna have in Golden Famosa Club. Because I'm moving on to another new job scope in a new place. I believe that I've gained much experiences here and knowledge too. I hope goodluck and happiness will follow me all the way.. And to do that, I shall let God to lead first.
Ggah! Pimple scars! Help me to get rid of them :((
Oh by the way, it's Friday the 20th! Yes, today is a special day. My company got another members' night. And the theme is HAWAIIAN NIGHT! The girls would be dressed beautifully in dresses which match the theme of course :))
And I decided to take pictures tonight! For whatever reason, I cannot let it out! I wanna upload loads and loads of pics tonight :D I hope I look good in pictures tonight :((((
My colleague haven't got anything to wear for tonight so both of us went out to Mahkota Parade and Dataran Pahlawan to find for some. And she bought one. While mine, from BRANDS OUTLET. I have an attire already. So I just wanna claim and I bought three tees! Hehe! Only for RM50. Very cheap and loads of designs! Go ahead and shop till you drop in BRANDS. But I guess you will not be able to because they're darn cheap! :D
Ah well, wait for the next post ;))
5th day.
Fifth freaking day without texting him ANYTHING!!
And yea, he doesn't text me either!
It's not really suffering though.. Hahaha! At least not as desperate as how I used to be in the first few weeks! And it's not something I should be proud of! Because I misssssssssssssssing him :( and I bet he doesn't miss me as how I am misssssssssssssssing him lor. Sigh. So saddening..
And again I shall state this: Such guys I never believe could exist.
*depressed*
Fifth freaking day without texting him ANYTHING!!
And yea, he doesn't text me either!
It's not really suffering though.. Hahaha! At least not as desperate as how I used to be in the first few weeks! And it's not something I should be proud of! Because I misssssssssssssssing him :( and I bet he doesn't miss me as how I am misssssssssssssssing him lor. Sigh. So saddening..
And again I shall state this: Such guys I never believe could exist.
*depressed*
and I cam-whored.
It was a holiday for us Malaccans! Because Sunday is our Malacca Historical City Day, so we got an off day on Monday! Whee! Absolutely no Monday blues!
ERM,
Actually, I'm out of topic. Just wanna drop by to update.
And to appreciate the silence I have in my office. LOL!
Yea, I turned on the volume yesterday to the max! TO THE MAX! Cos I was alone in the office and no one knew I am here (except the securities) and I just do my stuffs.
HOW AWESOME!!!! :O
Okay okay, just done reading babe's blog. She could put her posts so simple and short! Sweet simple short. I couldn't do that because I like to write looonnnggg posts and end up they're boring :(( and yes, WORDS hard to express what HEART wants to say :P
Alright. It's a Tuesday. And I'm working!
(*O*)
I'VE GOT INSTAGRAM!
INSTAAAAAGRAM!
It's originally an application for iPHONE but then it is made FREE for Android phones! Yeay! Awesomeness. Now I'm a happy girl! So check out my pictures under the name of "gingerteh" and enjoy the life I am watching and acting in it! :))
Cheers!!
Appreciate pictures and photographs! :D
INSTAAAAAGRAM!
It's originally an application for iPHONE but then it is made FREE for Android phones! Yeay! Awesomeness. Now I'm a happy girl! So check out my pictures under the name of "gingerteh" and enjoy the life I am watching and acting in it! :))
Cheers!!
Appreciate pictures and photographs! :D
The second week is not as tough as before.
But I still feel the struggle deep within me regarding him. I can no longer be there with him, and be with him.. Yes, I can say now that it is all his fault for making me like this but no matter what, I still adore him very much. I still like him a lot. I just couldn't understand his situation where he has to dump me just because he has problems. He has problems and yet, he told me and then we couldn't be together.
It's f*ing nonsense.
Yea, maybe if we are still together, I expect him to do more than he should. So he chose for us to be NOT together? I don't get it. He should all the more encourage me to be stronger when I am with him. I know his stories. But so far, how truthful he is to me, I can never know. Probably he is that sorta person who couldn't manage things properly at one time. But so what? This relationship IS a commitment, not an option. After all, we're in it together. Others knew our status. Sigh..
He couldn't understand this. He never will understand. When he explained to me the other day, I heard him telling me that I said something about commitment? I always see commitment as quite important. Once you committed to someone, she/he gonna be there in your life - part of your life. There's no such things as 10% or 20% of love he can give to the partner. That's stupid. When you love someone, you love them as how you love your family. As how you love your friends. There are no such things like portion of my heart is for you etc etc.
Haih... For me not to cry over this, is not something I can choose. I just cry. It comes naturally - no matter how strong I am now or in the future. When someone just breaks you, you cry. The more you keep, the hatred and bitterness will slowly grow in your heart. Why would you let these 2 evil things to conquer your life? I rather let my tears to flow out. Yes, I have a soft heart.
But it is better than the heart kept for revenge.
He shouldn't be stopping me from crying. He should be there when I cry.
GCYL,
If you're reading this post, I'm not keeping any hatred for you.. And of everything that happened. It is really really meaningful when someone would be there for you despite what problems you are having. And I am not in the wrong when I said I love you even more after you explained to tell me.. You did not make me understand why I couldn't be there for you when all these happened. You failed in making me to realize that I shouldn't be there. You couldn't understand what love truly is. You don't know.. You couldn't just say that you're not ready to have a gf when you're f*ing already in a relationship.
I don't know what are your intentions when you told me so, when you told me that you would choose to marry a rich man's daughter in order to settle your problems. Maybe you want to give me excuses so that I would stop looking for you - which you failed to comprehend that I won't. I don't know how you understand how hurt I am. I don't believe you even know it - because if you knew, you'd be there when I cry. Not just f*ing tell me not to cry.
People may see that you're not worth to be with. You may tell me that one day when I wake up, I will realize that all this is not worth it. Well, what can you say when I am already f*ing IN LOVE with you? I don't know WHAT you understand by the two words - IN LOVE! I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU when you f*ing fall out of love. Not out of love for me.. But just out of love.
I wish you could update me everything that happened in your life.
I wish you could just send me one or two texts each day to tell me you're okay.
I wish you could just have the heart to know how am I..
So you see the above pics are for him.. I did them for him.
And that bag, he needs one for his work. You know, I guess that when I do stuffs for people, it is not for the sake of pleasing them. But for THEIR SAKE! The little deeds I did, I do, and I will do are only as blessings... Nothing else.
I hope he understands my intentions.
I f*ing hope he does.
But I still feel the struggle deep within me regarding him. I can no longer be there with him, and be with him.. Yes, I can say now that it is all his fault for making me like this but no matter what, I still adore him very much. I still like him a lot. I just couldn't understand his situation where he has to dump me just because he has problems. He has problems and yet, he told me and then we couldn't be together.
It's f*ing nonsense.
Yea, maybe if we are still together, I expect him to do more than he should. So he chose for us to be NOT together? I don't get it. He should all the more encourage me to be stronger when I am with him. I know his stories. But so far, how truthful he is to me, I can never know. Probably he is that sorta person who couldn't manage things properly at one time. But so what? This relationship IS a commitment, not an option. After all, we're in it together. Others knew our status. Sigh..
He couldn't understand this. He never will understand. When he explained to me the other day, I heard him telling me that I said something about commitment? I always see commitment as quite important. Once you committed to someone, she/he gonna be there in your life - part of your life. There's no such things as 10% or 20% of love he can give to the partner. That's stupid. When you love someone, you love them as how you love your family. As how you love your friends. There are no such things like portion of my heart is for you etc etc.
Haih... For me not to cry over this, is not something I can choose. I just cry. It comes naturally - no matter how strong I am now or in the future. When someone just breaks you, you cry. The more you keep, the hatred and bitterness will slowly grow in your heart. Why would you let these 2 evil things to conquer your life? I rather let my tears to flow out. Yes, I have a soft heart.
But it is better than the heart kept for revenge.
He shouldn't be stopping me from crying. He should be there when I cry.
GCYL,
If you're reading this post, I'm not keeping any hatred for you.. And of everything that happened. It is really really meaningful when someone would be there for you despite what problems you are having. And I am not in the wrong when I said I love you even more after you explained to tell me.. You did not make me understand why I couldn't be there for you when all these happened. You failed in making me to realize that I shouldn't be there. You couldn't understand what love truly is. You don't know.. You couldn't just say that you're not ready to have a gf when you're f*ing already in a relationship.
I don't know what are your intentions when you told me so, when you told me that you would choose to marry a rich man's daughter in order to settle your problems. Maybe you want to give me excuses so that I would stop looking for you - which you failed to comprehend that I won't. I don't know how you understand how hurt I am. I don't believe you even know it - because if you knew, you'd be there when I cry. Not just f*ing tell me not to cry.
People may see that you're not worth to be with. You may tell me that one day when I wake up, I will realize that all this is not worth it. Well, what can you say when I am already f*ing IN LOVE with you? I don't know WHAT you understand by the two words - IN LOVE! I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU when you f*ing fall out of love. Not out of love for me.. But just out of love.
I wish you could update me everything that happened in your life.
I wish you could just send me one or two texts each day to tell me you're okay.
I wish you could just have the heart to know how am I..
So you see the above pics are for him.. I did them for him.
And that bag, he needs one for his work. You know, I guess that when I do stuffs for people, it is not for the sake of pleasing them. But for THEIR SAKE! The little deeds I did, I do, and I will do are only as blessings... Nothing else.
I hope he understands my intentions.
I f*ing hope he does.
It happened on March 14th, 2012.
When all things were perfect and certain.
When we were still together, going strong.
When I didn't even fall out of love because of your bad behaviours.
When I did not hate you because you likes shouting at me.
When I did not start disliking you because the lies/stories you told others.
When I couldn't even stop smiling due to your wacky attitude.
When I couldn't not trust you because you're not trustworthy and....
When I stayed because of your goodness.
Probably everything happened for a reason. Probably there is a better guy for me in the future. Someone who has a stabil job, a good income for me and future family, a good man of God... Probably those are the possibilities why we aren't together now. Probably you're trying to do something now in order for us to have a good life. Probably you are doing something better out of all this. Probably you were thinking that I am better without you and who you are.
You're wrong.
I hope you could read the letter I typed for you - just this once again. I just want you to read those words properly. The words that are truly from the bottom of my heart. Look at those words. I am not kidding in what I wrote. And I am not taking our relationship as a joke of 2012. I don't take relationships as jokes or something to have fun with... They're a commitment! Who knows what happened in the future, that's for God to handle and change.. I don't understand why you'd choose to do something which affects both of us badly. Probably not too bad for you. Because basically, I lost the most. You could choose to stop your heart from loving others. But you couldn't stop mine. And I still love you..
If only you read this..... and my previous post,
I hope you will know how much I love you (:
Here's the note I wrote for you the other day:
Dear GCYL,
Remember everything you have, and cherish it while you have it.
Cause one day, you might wake up, and it will be gone.
You might think that you've lost everything right now. But you did not.
Things are only temporary on earth.
Remember that God still loves you. And we love you too.
Forget those who wanna bring you down.
But always keep in mind those who love you up till now.
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long..
Remember me always in your eyes and in your heart :)
p/s:
iloveyou
When all things were perfect and certain.
When we were still together, going strong.
When I didn't even fall out of love because of your bad behaviours.
When I did not hate you because you likes shouting at me.
When I did not start disliking you because the lies/stories you told others.
When I couldn't even stop smiling due to your wacky attitude.
When I couldn't not trust you because you're not trustworthy and....
When I stayed because of your goodness.
Probably everything happened for a reason. Probably there is a better guy for me in the future. Someone who has a stabil job, a good income for me and future family, a good man of God... Probably those are the possibilities why we aren't together now. Probably you're trying to do something now in order for us to have a good life. Probably you are doing something better out of all this. Probably you were thinking that I am better without you and who you are.
You're wrong.
I hope you could read the letter I typed for you - just this once again. I just want you to read those words properly. The words that are truly from the bottom of my heart. Look at those words. I am not kidding in what I wrote. And I am not taking our relationship as a joke of 2012. I don't take relationships as jokes or something to have fun with... They're a commitment! Who knows what happened in the future, that's for God to handle and change.. I don't understand why you'd choose to do something which affects both of us badly. Probably not too bad for you. Because basically, I lost the most. You could choose to stop your heart from loving others. But you couldn't stop mine. And I still love you..
If only you read this..... and my previous post,
I hope you will know how much I love you (:
Here's the note I wrote for you the other day:
Dear GCYL,
Remember everything you have, and cherish it while you have it.
Cause one day, you might wake up, and it will be gone.
You might think that you've lost everything right now. But you did not.
Things are only temporary on earth.
Remember that God still loves you. And we love you too.
Forget those who wanna bring you down.
But always keep in mind those who love you up till now.
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long..
Remember me always in your eyes and in your heart :)
p/s:
iloveyou
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