and
No idea when and why it happened.
And I wondered again if it's a trap, again...
and
No idea when and why it happened.
And I wondered again if it's a trap, again...
Dec 25th
Christmas event in Hope Malacca was great. I was involved in the decoration and it was done last minute. Hehe. It was so late at night when Jonathan, Sin Lu, and I were putting up the snowflakes. I thought the polystyrene would work when the fluorescent light is on. But sadly, it couldn't make the snowflakes to shine in the darkness. Instead, the word "THE REASON" shone. Three of us were staring at the word and everything seemed so... peaceful. And I couldn't stop thanking God for bringing me into this church.
And I received a 'severe' shock at the time of Lemo's sharing. Jameson popped in at the door. Sis Wendy told me he wouldn't come! Anyway, we chatted and he gave me a small teddy as Christmas gift! Oh, and a Swiss dark chocolate too! Yummy, yummy, yummy (how nice if I could get a real shocking birthday surprise this time. I've enough of my birthday party info leaked right into my ears. sigh. I'm never going to get one, am I?)
Jan 2nd
After Ephraim care group, I went to watch "In The Name of the King" with Lemo, Richard, Charleson, Chris, Jonathan, Wei Bin, and Caleb. It was a sudden plan. We wanted to watch Alien vs. Predator but the movie has started. We were late so we just simply choose a movie which starts at 12am. Ok, about the movie, I was impressed by the main actor's fighting skill. It was taught by a Chinese. No wonder. The whole show is a bit like Lord of The Rings. The funny part was... the movie has a bit of comedy, romance, horror, action etc. All in one. From the poster and movie trailer, it has nothing to do with comedy. The guy who acted as Scooby-Doo's best friend is in the movie as well!! I was shocked to see him. He has some funny parts to act. But when he's serious, he's really good! To be frank, the whole movie annoyed Jonathan. There were a few times when we laughed or got horrified at the scenes, he'd surely turn to the back seats where I was with Lemo, Richard, and Charleson. It was dark in the room and he looked really, really hilarious. I kicked his chair and Richard tapped on his head. He couldn't stand the movie. I won't say it’s bad but it's... ok. I've this weird feeling about the movie. I really couldn't stand it!
Jan 5th
The day when David Jr went to MMU Cyber with Sis Joey for the first 'visitation'... I was invited but I didn't go. I really, really, really want to go. But unfortunately and fortunately, I had JDMM. I never had the thought of skipping the care group meeting. Though most of the time I'd feel sleepy, still, I won't miss it for anything... *grins at David*
Jan 6th
I was terrified once again... why? It was the first Sunday Service in 2008 and I was given the privilege to share testimony. I had been avoiding it. No one knew of course! Even PC. But God won't let me go off easily. I prepared the sharing with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Truly, the memories flashed back into my mind like the water rushing in the river. So much has changed. So many things had taken place. I myself can't believe that it was me who went through them all. I felt like I wasn't whatever I said during the service. I kept wondering if I am saying someone else's testimony. But it was mine :)
Jan 7-9th
The first 2 days didn't really go smoothly for the trip to A'Famosa Water World. Bro Abraham planned this trip with Jonathan and Sin Lu. We invited his visitor, Ivan together. The first day, Abraham predicted that it will rain and we went to watch The Golden Compass movie instead. The guys were SO naughty! After movie, I waited at the lift as I think about the church's restructuring and Patronella. I saw a lift opened and I walked nearer. Then, I saw Ivan in there. How he got in there so fast? My brain was processing so slow! The worse part, 2 cheeky faces came into sight! AH! I shrieked as I ran into the lift. What were they thinking? The guys crept in there without telling me. Jonathan laughed the loudest! I was so dead embarrassed! The second day, we finally went to Water World with Jonathan's red face. He was sick. Poor him. When we got there, the water world... was closed. It's closed EVERY TUESDAY! How would we know that? Why would theme parks closed on week days? But we went to a nearby lake and sang some praise songs. Finally, we manage to get in the water park on the third day. Phew. This time, we brought Celina and her mates. We had fun sliding down the tubes and slides! It was scary at first but I got so bold later on.
Jan 13-19th
It was the worst week in my entire life. I had a decision to make and it really drowned me in misery and bitterness. Plus, I've got to deal with my unbalanced emotions. I couldn't think properly and I didn't even feel the love from PC. The whole time, I felt alone. I felt hurt. I cried many times even after making up my mind. For a very mature Christian, it's a small thing. But for me, it's big! And it's all about the church restructuring thing. Since no one cared and I was being selfish on my own growth, I decided to go back to Benjamin. I do feel hurt. But it's for my own good, thinking that PC has the same thought. Everything went well until the time when someone told me about the care group meeting. I wasn't informed about it. So I started to ask Cherry. She was upset with me that I made up my mind to go change care group. I was shocked. I didn't know that the news would be informed so early. PC has already started to divide the care group into 2. The core team members had been chosen. I felt as if I am no longer a Josephian. Bro Abraham has already started telling me what an assistant care group has to do; the prayer, the leadership, etc. The pressure... Inside, I still couldn't feel that I belonged to Benjamin. It’s only 2 months I am in Joseph but the memories seemed like they've been there for months! During a certain prayer meeting, I felt very, very hurt. The whole day, I wanted to cry. New shepherds have been assigned for my sheep. There won't be much time for us to hang out again. We won't have much visiting to do together. We might sit at different tables during lunch after Sunday service. We’'ll have different objectives and focuses. All of that came into my mind. When David Lai asked us to gather in our own care groups, I was a bit lost. Suddenly, PC took my hand and said, “Come to Joseph.” That time, I was touched. I felt like crying again. When we pray for our care group, tears came into my eyes. I couldn't stop it. I really love the Josephians.
Jan 20th
I do not wish to see or talk to PC. Because I was crying inside and I dare not look at her. She doesn't know that of course! But on this day, we cleared our misunderstandings that wounded my heart so deeply. On the way to McDonald Drive-Thru, she told me about the plan if I were to stay back in Joseph. I was to form a Uganda care group with the help of Sis Celina. At that moment, something struck me. I remembered when McFLY promoted Comic Relief by visiting the Uganda children. That time, I was so touched by their deeds and how much I wanted to help the people too. Many children died of AIDS. And that disease is still very popular there. I went to a website; www.MakePovertyHistory.com and get updated about the news in Africa. I told PC about the wish and she said, “It’s not a coincidence that you meet up with Celina.” On that day onwards, I’ve made up my mind to do His will. Ever since I am in Joseph, I’ve a passion for the Africans. They’re all lovely people. And I just love hanging out with them. They made me smile and happy every time we go out.
Jan 21st
The day he went away. It is the day when David Jr went to Cyber to continue his studies. And it was also the day when we actually talk after not talking for weeks. I felt so sad that someone close to me has to go far away. Jonathan, David, and I met up with Myles, Eddiey, Lame, and Ireen. We went for lunch together in Alamanda’s McDonald. Then, we went for some shopping before leaving ALL of them in Cyber. When I wave goodbye at David after putting him in MMU, I feel so sad. All the memories we had together came back. I’m sure that the meetings will be different when he’s not around but, can I do anything? It might be God’s will for him to make a change in Cyber. I’ll never know.
Christmas event in Hope Malacca was great. I was involved in the decoration and it was done last minute. Hehe. It was so late at night when Jonathan, Sin Lu, and I were putting up the snowflakes. I thought the polystyrene would work when the fluorescent light is on. But sadly, it couldn't make the snowflakes to shine in the darkness. Instead, the word "THE REASON" shone. Three of us were staring at the word and everything seemed so... peaceful. And I couldn't stop thanking God for bringing me into this church.
And I received a 'severe' shock at the time of Lemo's sharing. Jameson popped in at the door. Sis Wendy told me he wouldn't come! Anyway, we chatted and he gave me a small teddy as Christmas gift! Oh, and a Swiss dark chocolate too! Yummy, yummy, yummy (how nice if I could get a real shocking birthday surprise this time. I've enough of my birthday party info leaked right into my ears. sigh. I'm never going to get one, am I?)
Jan 2nd
After Ephraim care group, I went to watch "In The Name of the King" with Lemo, Richard, Charleson, Chris, Jonathan, Wei Bin, and Caleb. It was a sudden plan. We wanted to watch Alien vs. Predator but the movie has started. We were late so we just simply choose a movie which starts at 12am. Ok, about the movie, I was impressed by the main actor's fighting skill. It was taught by a Chinese. No wonder. The whole show is a bit like Lord of The Rings. The funny part was... the movie has a bit of comedy, romance, horror, action etc. All in one. From the poster and movie trailer, it has nothing to do with comedy. The guy who acted as Scooby-Doo's best friend is in the movie as well!! I was shocked to see him. He has some funny parts to act. But when he's serious, he's really good! To be frank, the whole movie annoyed Jonathan. There were a few times when we laughed or got horrified at the scenes, he'd surely turn to the back seats where I was with Lemo, Richard, and Charleson. It was dark in the room and he looked really, really hilarious. I kicked his chair and Richard tapped on his head. He couldn't stand the movie. I won't say it’s bad but it's... ok. I've this weird feeling about the movie. I really couldn't stand it!
Jan 5th
The day when David Jr went to MMU Cyber with Sis Joey for the first 'visitation'... I was invited but I didn't go. I really, really, really want to go. But unfortunately and fortunately, I had JDMM. I never had the thought of skipping the care group meeting. Though most of the time I'd feel sleepy, still, I won't miss it for anything... *grins at David*
Jan 6th
I was terrified once again... why? It was the first Sunday Service in 2008 and I was given the privilege to share testimony. I had been avoiding it. No one knew of course! Even PC. But God won't let me go off easily. I prepared the sharing with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Truly, the memories flashed back into my mind like the water rushing in the river. So much has changed. So many things had taken place. I myself can't believe that it was me who went through them all. I felt like I wasn't whatever I said during the service. I kept wondering if I am saying someone else's testimony. But it was mine :)
Jan 7-9th
The first 2 days didn't really go smoothly for the trip to A'Famosa Water World. Bro Abraham planned this trip with Jonathan and Sin Lu. We invited his visitor, Ivan together. The first day, Abraham predicted that it will rain and we went to watch The Golden Compass movie instead. The guys were SO naughty! After movie, I waited at the lift as I think about the church's restructuring and Patronella. I saw a lift opened and I walked nearer. Then, I saw Ivan in there. How he got in there so fast? My brain was processing so slow! The worse part, 2 cheeky faces came into sight! AH! I shrieked as I ran into the lift. What were they thinking? The guys crept in there without telling me. Jonathan laughed the loudest! I was so dead embarrassed! The second day, we finally went to Water World with Jonathan's red face. He was sick. Poor him. When we got there, the water world... was closed. It's closed EVERY TUESDAY! How would we know that? Why would theme parks closed on week days? But we went to a nearby lake and sang some praise songs. Finally, we manage to get in the water park on the third day. Phew. This time, we brought Celina and her mates. We had fun sliding down the tubes and slides! It was scary at first but I got so bold later on.
Jan 13-19th
It was the worst week in my entire life. I had a decision to make and it really drowned me in misery and bitterness. Plus, I've got to deal with my unbalanced emotions. I couldn't think properly and I didn't even feel the love from PC. The whole time, I felt alone. I felt hurt. I cried many times even after making up my mind. For a very mature Christian, it's a small thing. But for me, it's big! And it's all about the church restructuring thing. Since no one cared and I was being selfish on my own growth, I decided to go back to Benjamin. I do feel hurt. But it's for my own good, thinking that PC has the same thought. Everything went well until the time when someone told me about the care group meeting. I wasn't informed about it. So I started to ask Cherry. She was upset with me that I made up my mind to go change care group. I was shocked. I didn't know that the news would be informed so early. PC has already started to divide the care group into 2. The core team members had been chosen. I felt as if I am no longer a Josephian. Bro Abraham has already started telling me what an assistant care group has to do; the prayer, the leadership, etc. The pressure... Inside, I still couldn't feel that I belonged to Benjamin. It’s only 2 months I am in Joseph but the memories seemed like they've been there for months! During a certain prayer meeting, I felt very, very hurt. The whole day, I wanted to cry. New shepherds have been assigned for my sheep. There won't be much time for us to hang out again. We won't have much visiting to do together. We might sit at different tables during lunch after Sunday service. We’'ll have different objectives and focuses. All of that came into my mind. When David Lai asked us to gather in our own care groups, I was a bit lost. Suddenly, PC took my hand and said, “Come to Joseph.” That time, I was touched. I felt like crying again. When we pray for our care group, tears came into my eyes. I couldn't stop it. I really love the Josephians.
Jan 20th
I do not wish to see or talk to PC. Because I was crying inside and I dare not look at her. She doesn't know that of course! But on this day, we cleared our misunderstandings that wounded my heart so deeply. On the way to McDonald Drive-Thru, she told me about the plan if I were to stay back in Joseph. I was to form a Uganda care group with the help of Sis Celina. At that moment, something struck me. I remembered when McFLY promoted Comic Relief by visiting the Uganda children. That time, I was so touched by their deeds and how much I wanted to help the people too. Many children died of AIDS. And that disease is still very popular there. I went to a website; www.MakePovertyHistory.com and get updated about the news in Africa. I told PC about the wish and she said, “It’s not a coincidence that you meet up with Celina.” On that day onwards, I’ve made up my mind to do His will. Ever since I am in Joseph, I’ve a passion for the Africans. They’re all lovely people. And I just love hanging out with them. They made me smile and happy every time we go out.
Jan 21st
The day he went away. It is the day when David Jr went to Cyber to continue his studies. And it was also the day when we actually talk after not talking for weeks. I felt so sad that someone close to me has to go far away. Jonathan, David, and I met up with Myles, Eddiey, Lame, and Ireen. We went for lunch together in Alamanda’s McDonald. Then, we went for some shopping before leaving ALL of them in Cyber. When I wave goodbye at David after putting him in MMU, I feel so sad. All the memories we had together came back. I’m sure that the meetings will be different when he’s not around but, can I do anything? It might be God’s will for him to make a change in Cyber. I’ll never know.
Thanks to PC, Cherry, Agnes, Phillip, Lemo, TC, Tumelo, Jessica, One, Nonofo, Patronella, Celina, Sello, Speech, Thabo, Chockri, Cindy, Siphiwe, Diane, Oaitse, LT, David Foo, Kennedy, BC, Carlos, Stephanie, and Betsy.
These people had made different impacts in my life ever since I came into Joseph. All of them have done a great job serving the Lord together. God is really faithful with Joseph care group. I noticed that the people have changed inside out. From the first day I knew them, I feel like we are from different planets. I am so pleased with Patronella, especially. She has been faithful to come to meetings. I can see that her love for God is growing.
Sello, Jessica, TC, me, PC, Cherry, Nonofo, Lemo, Agnes, and Tumelo
Siphiwe and Pai Chet
(Richard at the back)
Celina and me on the sandy part in Water World
One, Nonofo, and TC
I never know coming into Joseph care group is something good.
I really never thought of it...
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