(May 28th) Was Good

For the past few days, I was sick. Had stomach ache. I bathed 3 times yesterday. The last one before going for DMM meeting at 11pm. Was sick, what to do? Bathe many many times. But still, after bathe, I feel very hot and got sweaty all over again. Had to bring a jacket with me when I go for meeting. I put on the jacket, then I've to take it off again. After a while, I put it on back. Phew. For those who knew me since many years ago, they know I hate to see a doctor. And wouldn't even move my butt when I got really sick


But thanks to my mum's forceful tone, "I say go eat the medicine now", I forced myself to walk to the kitchen with my blanket around me. I brought out the medicine and looked at it for a long time. Sigh. So many. I swallowed them in 2 gulps. Done. Hoorah. Back to TV. Then, I realized that the stomach ache just gone in just few minutes. I just don't know how... it's a miracle! I was like trying to feel the pain in the stomach, but surprisingly, it just went away.


Hillsong United is performing TONIGHT!!
Today's the concert. Can't believe that I am not going. Will try next year!


Signing out. Tata.


p.s: watched Desperate Housewives for 2 episodes. Find it a bit weird. I love the town they're living in. Very beautiful. But didn't get the interest to watch it anymore :P

(May 24th) Lovely

It was very chaotic here in Esther House few minutes ago. The noises began about 1pm and the people here never stop screaming & shouting on top of their voices, teasing each other.. and THAT's what you'll get when the Benjamites are around: Abraham, Julian, Charleson, Jennifer, Su Han, Khai Lyn, Wendy Chua, Fiona, and Phillip. The special gathering is only about eating. I never know that bro Charleson can cook. OMG. He did 2 types of French food. Both pasta and a big bowl of coleslaw. very very very DELICIOUS! No pictures. Sob.


Never had such gathering for a long time. Especially when Shin Jie, me , Su Han, Bing Yi, and Khai Lyn were in the care group. All of us always stick to each other through the ups and downs. We are always there for one another and never fail to... just be there for each other..














Memories... memories... (^-^)

(May 20th)

Does "k" sounds disrespectful to you?
*say K with a soft tone.*
Is it rude?
Is it annoying?
It only means "ok".












H e i s a n n o y e d w i t h i t .


Ish.

(May 18th) Do You Know?

你知道吗
没有一天 我不会想起你
没有一个早晨 我不会要 sms 你
没有一个中午 我不会问你 吃了午饭吗
没有一个晚上 我不会问你 这一天过的好吗


你知道吗
就只有你 能够让我开心
就只是坐在你身边 就感觉很安全
就只是听到你声音 就感受到阳光的温暖
就只是听到你说话 就感受到深深的爱


你知道吗
我有多么的关心你啊
每一天 我更喜欢你
每一秒 我更爱你


你知道吗
这爱是为何 我也不知道
我试着察探我心深处 寻找答案
但这一切都不重要
因为 最重要的是 我对你的爱
那包容的 守护的 深信的 爱


但我只要的是
你的关怀 发觉我的存在
你的爱心 重视我这个朋友
还有你的微笑 告诉我你一直都会在我身边
还有你那眼神 让我肯定 你是认真的

(May 16th) A Joke?

Hey guys, I borrowed a book called "14,000 Quips & Quotes for Writers & Speakers" by E.C McKenzie from the library today. I went through it and seriusly, people would think that I am crazy that I was giggling at the table, all alone. I shared a quote to my friends and.. here it is...

Christmas is when we celebrate the birth of Prince of Peace
by giving our kids rockets, machine guns, atom-bomb kits, and tanks.














How's it?

(May 15th) What was I Thinking?

The Siti Hasmah Digital Library is always FULL.
Sadly, I just realized that our library is called by that name. Tsk.

Have been sitting in the library lab for more than 3 hours. Read 5 slides of Electronic Commerce Chap1 and 2 pages of Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life. Man! This book is good. It had been a year since bro Abraham hand over me the book. And I only finished reading last month. I'm on and off Friendster and Facebook. Checking comments on my blog. See what I have been going through these few months. So-called "checking out my spiritual condition". Haha. I browsed through my friend's friends blogs a while ago. Can't stop giggling at what they wrote. Some are so funny, they actually leave tears in your eyes. So lawak.


I was checking on sis Celina in meebo and she told me that she hadn't been sleeping well for the past few days, since Tuesday. Bad. Exam's on the way and she needs to read, read and read. I don't know how studies could put pressure on a young girl like her. But yet, she's still smiling! Keep holding, girl! You can do it. My lil advice for you, sis: Don't let daddy know that you've been not sleeping well here. Hehe. Another reminder for you: Remember to text me when you reach Uganda. I will miss you a lottt :(


All the "i love you" and "i miss you" SMSes have been circling around the Josephians lately. The lurrrve extended to and from the Levites, Manasseh-ians, Zebulunites, and the Isaacharians. Sweeeeeeet!! You never know how much all the SMSes mean to me. To be frank, my phones can't keep 100 texts but the ones 'specially from my dearest Lemo, Celina, Gloria, Pamela, Jameson, Agnes, Cherry, TC, David Jr, G... Ish! They're all in my phones since few months ago. Always re-re-read them. Bad idea to keep old texts but they aren't "old". The phone's out of space!!


.....


Sadly, I'm out of words. Sigh. Here's a cool picture out of my fav collection.

man! I just love this picture ;D
still wondering why Richard's jersey is in yellow




OMG!




I just found something "interesting" in my friend's Facebook. It really startled me.






What the heck? Should I care?





Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

(May 14th) When I Am in His Presence..

Anyone heard the explosion this morning?


The clouds clashed among themselves like a war broke out in the spiritual realm. It shook my heart. I looked at my phone and groaned. It was only 3.30am. The rain was pouring like mad! I pulled the blanket over my head and hugged my pillow. I felt so safe. That's what you will feel when you know that God always looks after you. Stuffs ran into my mind like no one's business. The news about Myanmar cyclone disaster which kills 220,000 (410,000 remain missing) and the 8.3 magnitude earthquake in China which kills 240,000 (some believed 750,000). I read the news saying that India gave warning to Myanmar 48 hours before the cyclone strikes the country. What had happened actually? If this warning is ignored, imagine when Jesus comes back for the 2nd time.. I really feel so sad that so many people lost their family and friends. Sigh. The rain kept on pouring. Then there was the thunder again. It stopped the rain for only a second then it continued...


Guess what? I slept for another 6 hours before I woke up with very tired fingers, pressing the buttons on Miss 3100... "MESSAGE SENT". Today, I woke up with mind fully focusing on Him. Agh! I feel so different today. So peaceful. So happy can get to keep in touch with my dear Pauline again. We certainly had a wicked girl chat few nights ago. Hoho! Talk about guys, God, and some other stuffs. Lovely evening it was. And my creds gone like the F1 cars as they race on the track in Sepang. I am wishing that I am able to get the Digi Bonus now. Need creds!

Not thinking about him.
Not thinking about my past 2 papers. But I still remember how shocked I was when I opened Business Law question paper.
Not thinking about the Secret Recipe's Chocolate Banana which doesn't please me at all. That reminds me to strangle Lyndy when I see her.
Not thinking about him.
Not planning to go yam cha anymore. Sorry lar, Jun Hong.
Not planning to go town any days this week.
Not thinking of going to work. Wanna puke. Groan...
Not planning to eat anything starting tonight. Seriously, I am fat!
Not thinking about him.

Someday you'll cry for me like I cried for you,
Someday you'll miss me like I missed you,
Someday you'll say you need me like I needed you,
Someday you'll say you love me
But I won't love you.


Shut up, Fiona .. Really.





Figures taken from BBC.CO.UK

(May 3rd) Happy Tree Friends in Jesus

I've been smiling for the whole day now.


Miss Lyndy a.k.a Lilic Mama-chan would probably be saying, "Crazy ar? Smile smile. Nothing to do is it?" You can never guess how many times I grin in my working place. The reason? The bros and sis in Christ sent me encouraging SMSes. How can I not smile? I don't know how to thank God for their lives. They have been right beside me ever since day 1 in Hope Church.


I still can remember how I was brought to church. It was lunch time with Bro Abraham. He's a friend of mine since Foundation Year. We were in Student Publication Board together. And that time, all I know about him is... games games games! This guy always skip his classes and never studies for exam! Plus, he likes to talk a lot. I remember the time when we were in SFC with Nikki, we were "debating" over who's more powerful: the Prime Minister or the King. Of course he knows more than we do. Heh. He was so quiet during the lunch and I really can't stand the silence. C'mon, he likes talking. In his unbelievable faint voice, he said, "I'm a Christian."


"SERIOUS ar? Don't bluff me! Which church you go?"


"Hope."


"Hope?"


"Yea, Hope."


"*Never heard of the church before one*... Bring me go lar! I always want to go to a church. Since now you do go to church, I want to join." because I believe that this brother has made the right decision.


From the first care group to the first prayer meeting and to the first ever Sunday Service I went... everything has been written in His calender for me. The first plan He made is to bring me back from Cyberjaya. Successful. Then, He brought bro Paul to me. Successful but Failed to keep in touch. Then, it's bro Abraham. Successful. It's the Life Testimony that influences the people around us. Gotta admit that it was my heart problem that I kept avoiding bro Paul. Bad. God helped me to grow in Benjamin and within 2 months, I was brought into membership class and JDMM; discovering the struggling scenes behind just a care group... and hurtful moments.


As I continue to serve in Joseph (after 1st restructuring), I realized that being a member of a local church is not just having 100% attendance of every meetings. You've got to give your life to God, for the people in the care group, church, the lost souls... not forgetting the lovable ones under your care. Just like it is said, "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." in John 15:13. This verse means a lot to me. It's not just any 'statement' but I take it as a command. God loves us, that's why Jesus lay down His life for us.


I can tell you names of the people who are in the stage of "GIVE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU CAN IN AS MANY WAYS AS YOU CAN FOR AS LONG AS YOU CAN" [taken from David Jr]. The sacrificial hearts, the love, the care, the kindness, the faithfulness, the hope, the trust from the people...


Have left me breathless.


And kept me smiling.

Boleng teng jwa Modimo bo na le wena!

Current favourite:
Jesus's Blood (Hillsong United - More Than Life), Extravagant Worship & So Near (Lizzie Deane - Encounter Worship Vol. 1)

(May 2nd) Anyone Going?

*screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmms*

So can't believe that I'm able to hear them sing Evermore, that's if I'm going..


But I wanna go... it's gonna be after all my exams and school break is during that time.. *taking a deep breath* Oh My God.











p.s: still wishing Hillsong London to come Malaysia ;)

(May 1st)

HAPPY LABOUR DAY, all!
* yes, I meant EVERYONE... ;)

I woke up early in the morning today. Very early. About 8am. I read the text msg from Jameson and replied him. Twice. This guy really needs encouragement. Then, about 8.30am, he called. To my surprise, he hadn't gone to bed since last night. Yikes!! How can he stay up so late? Oh yeah, the life of a pilot. Not able to get sleep at the proper time. Always having flights at 4am! Poor him. Yesterday he slept from 9am to 5pm. I can't stand that! Sleeping in the morning. Even sis Celina does that. So powerful :O ok, I went to work at 9.10am and arrived there before Sammi did *evil grin* I wore heels today and my foot is still aching. It's not new. It's the one I bought for Chinese New Year. Sighhhh..


Do you know the song, "EVERMORE" by Hillsong United? Man, I love that song so much! And guess what? Each time when the track comes up on the iPod, I'd put it at the highest volume. Why would I be that mad? It's all because of the... what do you call the beginning of the song? Ok, never mind. Just that. The beginning of the song is so amazing! Even when I heard it at the first time, I fell in love with it at once. The piano, the guitar, the bass, the drums... altogether... OMG! No words can describe how I feel for that part. Seriously good.


To be frank, I just love the opening. Not the whole song though ;)


Sobs. Got to go home now. It's getting late. Mum's gonna scold me. Am surfing the net using Gloria's pc in BBU. And she's sleeping next to me... till then...

O ITLHOKOMELE, peeps!
"that's TAKE CARE in Setswana"