I hate myself for the hurt I caused..
You never know how painful it gets every night.
The feelings is like a knife pushing into your heart. The blade and the skin of your heart. The knife cannot enter. It is just there..
Last night was the worse. I am afraid to fall asleep. I tried keep myself awake to keep an eye on things. I don't know why. I want the internet connection to be turned on every second. I just need to connect with somebody, anybody. But at the thought of working the next day - means waking up by 6am, I forced myself to bed.
I could feel myself went crazy, that I keep holding my phone - restricting myself to text anyone eventhough I don't know who to talk to. It was really late anyway.. I really think I am going crazy. All I could think is just the past. I could not move into the future.
I am just stuck in the present. Mind of the past. Heart for the future..
Probably that is why people said that the longest distance is from the heart to the mind..
The feelings is like a knife pushing into your heart. The blade and the skin of your heart. The knife cannot enter. It is just there..
Last night was the worse. I am afraid to fall asleep. I tried keep myself awake to keep an eye on things. I don't know why. I want the internet connection to be turned on every second. I just need to connect with somebody, anybody. But at the thought of working the next day - means waking up by 6am, I forced myself to bed.
I could feel myself went crazy, that I keep holding my phone - restricting myself to text anyone eventhough I don't know who to talk to. It was really late anyway.. I really think I am going crazy. All I could think is just the past. I could not move into the future.
I am just stuck in the present. Mind of the past. Heart for the future..
Probably that is why people said that the longest distance is from the heart to the mind..
:'(
1 say(s):
Can call me ma XD
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