(April 19th) Something So Light

I believed that Jesus Christ loves little children. I am no longer little, but I know that He loved me ever since the beginning, before the world is created. And I know He has always been there for me; the ups and downs of my life. He has never left me.


And to testify His goodness, yesterday He took away the heaviest burden in my life. When I lie on the bed, I looked at the mattress above me. It was like the most peaceful day in this week. I stared at the top for a long time. And I thank God quietly. I prayed to Him almost every time that I thought of the trouble. He let me know about how He will do but I thought it was just my mind speaking. But He made it happen. Though it caused me to missed prayer meeting, I know that He has His ways to solve the matter for me and I fully trust in Him. I know that I am supposed to go for the meeting. But now, I am in between doubt and trust about the solution to my problem. Is it really His way? That caused me to miss prayer meeting?


Wonderful things happen when we are in trouble. And we seek God more often when we are facing problems. And that's the time when we are able to understand God

better.


Romans 5:2
"through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God."

In You I have Faith.
In You I saw Hope.
In You I have LOVE.
In You I know Who I am.

(April 14th) When My Face Turned Green

Last 2 days in Genting Highlands were great.

Hope Malacca members went there for our Church Retreat. I was surprised to know that there's a church at the parking lot (below Arcade). The church was small but all of us feel warm in there. Everyone was feeling so cold. We have to walk from our apartment to the church. It took us about 10 minutes. I stayed with Jessica, Betsy, Nonofo, Diane, Patronella, Cindy, and Chockri in RIA Apartment. Our apartment is one of the best one, though I didn't see how nice it is compare to others. Haha. But the view... oh my Lord. VERY BEAUTIFUL! The sisters kept taking pictures on Sunday morning. And we were late for service. I was frustrated because we had to be there before 8am. But alas, I think we arrived about 9+am. I was supposed to be the projectionist. When I took over, I screwed up the slides pages. I was feeling so embarrassed. I didn't want to do it because bro Richard can handle it. But sis Florence needs him to control the PA system.


After preaching on Sunday, I brought my housemates back. It was almost 6pm. And I decided to buy something for them to eat. We didn't have enough money and sis Pai Chet bought bread for us. But they couldn't eat. So, I went out to buy. WITHOUT ANY SWEATER. My, very lovely cool breeze. I mean, very cold. Bro Paul brought me to buy dinner in... I don't remember the name of the place. Everything went very fine on the day... but when it's time to go home, I would never forget about it. I was to drive bro Aaron's car back to Malacca from Genting.


I've never drive from anywhere to Malacca before. I've never drive for 4 hours before. I've never, never drive on the winding roads, especially at the mountain. My God. I was so shocked when the rain totally blinded me on the way down. Bro Victor who guided me went too fast and I couldn't catch up. Ok, actually I was slow. The mirror was blur. Sis Pai Chet then guide me. After that, she went missing. I was going quite fast but I still can't catch up with them. And there were 4 lives in my hand that night. The sky was dark and the rain kept falling onto the Earth. I was so direction-less and alone. I almost cry and I kept on speaking in tongues. Sis Chedza, Jessica, Cindy, and Chockri were sleeping. I was alone. I kept on driving until there's a parting to Seremban and Kuala Lumpur. REALLY, I didn't drive on the highway before! So, I've no idea where to go, and I chose the road to KL and Ipoh. Deep in my heart, I knew it's the wrong road. But all I was thinking is to go KL.


I didn't see any of their cars by the road so, I knew I took the wrong lane. I was driving and kept following the sign to go KL. Bro Jonathan told me so when I was at Gombak rest place. I was so frightened. I might end up in Ipoh if I didn't try to call anyone. And guess what? I kept driving and I ended up at KTM Railway Station. When he called me, he was right after the traffic light. He came to my car with bro Victor. I was so relieved to see them. After that, they brought me to SHELL. Bro Jonathan told me, "Your face turned green."











Sis Chedza said, "I saw you feeling sleepy and that's why I talk to you." It was true. I was feeling awfully sleepy that I kept the car on the middle lane. When I blinked my eyes, I found myself driving to the dividers... three times @__________@ very scary..

(April 10th) God is great!

Sometimes I do have doubt if God really answer my prayers.


But Sis Celina doesn't have!


She has faith that God will definitely answer her prayers and every little bit of her cries; that's of course for expanding His Kingdom. I was in the living room watching E! on Astro whilst she was in her room dressing up. Then, she came out of her room and say, "I was checking the courses online just now and I saw that the course that I wanted, is offered in Malacca campus." I was shrieking and almost jumped off the sofa. I was so happy! I really can't believe that. I was shrieking again, and shrieking in my heart =)


Yea, you can see me grinning widely now.


Hehe.














Praise God!

(April 7th) Impossible?

"Everything will be OK. Everything will be fine." - Lemo


"Don't worry larr." - Pai Chet, Sin Lu, Jonathan... & the Holy Spirit

Yea, everything will be ok no matter what happens. That's how convinced Lemo is towards God who could do all things. Through Him, EVERYTHING is possible. Though the words sound simple and plain, they show how much faith he has in his Almighty Lord. The Lord says that we should not worry about what we wear for yam cha, what we eat, where we go, how to do this, when it'll be done, and the list goes on... No matter how BIG the problem you have, it is considered sap sap sui (easy easy water) for God. But it is not Him who should do the solving for our teeny-wheeny stuff. A brother told me, "It is 99% of your work to get it done." God gives us the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us. Therefore, we already have someone beside us who gives us advice and even warn us from doing evil.


There was one fine day that my mind was taking control of me. I have so many things in my mind. SO MANY!!!! And the vulnerable me broke down. Totally and completely lost my mind. I went to bed and wept. Then a brother called and I shared with him about what I was thinking. MY GOODNESS! When he shared, my eye-balls felt like dropping out. I can't believe his words! His sound sometimes increases and it like he's really angry with me. But later the volume decreases... I was really amazed at how much wisdom he has. Oh my Lord. I felt like I should worship his wisdom. Nah. It's God who gave the wisdom. This brother told me that he prayed for wisdom from the Lord every single day. He needs it in his ministry. He asked me to pray for it since I have 'so many problems'. Tsk.


My God, sometimes I'd just lose faith in Him because my focus automatically shifts to what looks attractive to me. Something like the worldly choices seem the best for us... yea, something like that. WOW. You never know such choices brought me HELL! And I can even put the wordly choices in this way: RED GLEAMING STRAWBERRIES with nothing but worms.


Can you imagine that Lemo said if he hears me thinking negatively, he's gonna slap me?





















hehe.

(April 4th) Another Day...

To my dearest sis Stella,

Happy 23rd Birthday!
May God bless you more in your studies and work.
May you gain lotsa knowledge when you're in Sabah.

don't forget to share with me all about the trip, ya ;)

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A brother from church asked me for the ISS Nite (Apr 3rd) few days ago. It was my first time getting invited to be someone's date. I was thrilled and I got so excited. I couldn't stop thinking how great the dinner would be. And for your info, I haven't been to a dinner before, as in like you'll have to get dressed up for it. It's really, really interesting! The ticket's quite cheap and obviously he is getting the ticket for me.


But I turned down his invitation. I have an exam on Saturday. TWO exams to be exact: ACCOUNTING and RESEARCH METHODOLOGY. And I have a morning class on the next day. I need plenty of hours to study. I feel so nervous whenever I think about Accountings. Why does it has to be so scary? Hmm.. I feel guilty for not going with him because he has hopes that I'll go. But I didn't. Probably I'll buy him dinner to make it up ;) Um... Any ideas what to get for him?

(March 31st) And Time Flies..

Can't think of the time I'd be free.




Can't think of any events to go.




Couldn't get the voucher back from Rebecca in time to give to my mum.




Can't get the guts or the interest out from me to go.




Can't think of ANY reason WHY I should do it.




And the CLINIQUE MAKEOVER WORTH rm100 VOUCHER wasted.





Was my birthday gift from my sis :/

(March 28th) What a Hot Day!

My, what a very hot day. And it's the time of the month.

HOT and WET.


WET:
It's the time when women across the globe get really, really frust. But the girl typing this post becomes really forgetful.




















Note: Yey! Chimezie finally tasted the squid. Wahahahaha! He he.

(March 25th)

Oh, my birthday is over.

(March 20th) The Girls

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
PAI CHET
CINDY
RADIKAH


The saddest thing during your birthday is I COULDN'T BE WHERE YOU ARE.


but


the happiest thing is... I AM ABLE TO SEE YOU SMILE.

FLASHBACK:

I had an amazing girl talk with Sis Joey on Friday Night in JB. It was my first time talking with her about girl stuffs. Well, she's really a nice person to talk to. But before I know that, I was too afraid to go near her. I just had to talk with her that night. We slept in the same room so I took the chance. I told her about some personal stuff and she helped me to solve it. We both know this brother and I wanted to actually know what's in his mind. He's a close friend of hers so I thought she'd know better than me. She shared with me what this brother went through and I got to clear the misunderstandings I had for him. I feel so glad that she's there to listen to me and help me out :) though I feel that the problem has not settled, but just as she said, "Leave it to God. If we keep thinking about it, the matter will get worse and affect our serving."


Thanks, Sis!

(March 18th) Hectic Week? AWW-some

Back, and going away again. As you know, I don't own any Internet connection at home. It's MMU midterm break now, and, it's time to get lazy again. For the past week, it has been very "busy" for me. I consider it as busy because I kept going out from my house and returning late. Very bad girl. Anyway, here are the stuffs happened last week...

Came back from Bible Conference "A Powerful Prayer Church" in Hope Johor Bahru. Slept in Priscilla's house. It was supposed to be a GREAT event but turned out that something bad happened. It wrecked most of my care group's excitement. Sigh. Anyway, the other days are ok. Managed to understand things about Prayer. After service, celebrated Pastor David's birthday. The people from Hope Malacca was cheering for him and made Sis Lena to say, "Wah! You're so popular!" Ps David is indeed popular among us!



I skipped the Birthday cg on Monday because I had a sudden emotional break down. I had a phone call from someone and I couldn't stop myself from being really upset. I wished I could join them but I isolated myself. I sat in the van. Then, I just felt like seeing Celina and I rushed over. Seeing her made me smile. We had a few chat and Seuntjie called. He wanted to come see me.. Aww. So sweet. Haha! He willing to walk from Noah House to BBU. It's not very far but the heart.. *grins*



The assignments have been divided and I've got 2 things to do. Still, I'm lack of resources for Business Law and Research Methodology. Man! I need some expert to guide me!



Jameson promised to come down to celebrate with me. Well, he'll be here with his bro, Nicholas. The next pilot in the Wong family. Hehe. He's extremely cute and tall. He's taller than you, Jameson. Har har.



Went for visitations at Permai. Sent text msgs to my sheeps but got no replies. That's very upsetting. Lack of prayer I supposed :/



Had shepherding with PC and received many comments on my attitude. I tried to be someone better who can lead and not fall into that temptation easily. I kept writing down the things I need to change, but during prayer, I couldn't tell Him about them. I always lost for words. Sigh.



I had been playing a song by Hillsong. I love that song so much but I've no idea what's the title and which Hillsong sang it. ARGH! It's killing me. There's no title in the cd and Cherry doesn't even know it.



Persuaded Sis Joey to buy the RM12 shoes in Viss, Jusco Skudai. Haha! The shoe shop is having sales up to 70% discount! The shoes are so cute! I asked her to buy 3 pairs. They will only cost her less then RM50. And she love them all. But at last, she only bought 2. And I've forgotten to take pictures of them T____T



Read Psalms.



Skipped to Proverbs.

(March 6th) OMG!

Honestly, I'm really into designing... anything that has to do with Arts. And I'm not bluffing. But I wonder if my "creation" is really good. When I kept looking at Sis Joey's artworks, I will always go WOW! No doubt that she's veryyyy creative. Some people likes to compare *cough* and I'm one of them. There are times I make souvenirs for my care group people... sometimes I'd just do it out of love. They said it's nice. But... hers is nicer.


ANYWAY, different people has different ideas *grins*


Here's one of my "creation" for the upcoming Hope Malacca event. I hope this poster is ok. Can you give some comments on where I should improve? Thanks ;)

By the way, here's the link: A LOVE OF STAMPING where you'll find little to big pretty hand made cards etc! I know you'll go WOW.

(March 4th) Nothing Much...

It's no good trying to keep up old friendships. It's painful for both sides.

The fact is, one grows out of people, and the only thing is to face it.

- W. Somerset Maugham





False friends aren't always that bad because it shows you about yourself and teaches you to be strong and life goes on.
- Josh Wojo





My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me.
- Henry Ford





A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, but touches your heart.
- Kathleen Grove





To find a friend one must close one eye; To keep him, two.
- Norman Douglas

(March 1st) Doink!

Here I am updating Facebook, checking Friendster as I am struggling to finish the registration form for the Hope Southern Region Family Cum Badminton Tournament #2... and drinking Coke out of Wendy's refrigerator.

Coke is bad for health

.

Badminton is good for health

.

Facebook is addictive

.

Friendster is colourful

.

Online till 2am, is absurd!!

(Feb 26th) Vote For...

My mum scolded me yesterday and called me crazy.


She wouldn't do that if it concerns a small matter. But it's all about the Election Day. It happens once in a few years. Everyone is encouraged to vote because a vote really matters a lot for our future. Malaysians' future... I was sort of excited and high about it when I was younger. I so wanted to follow my parents to vote. Few years later, after watching news on how some parties marching down the streets, showing angry faces; tearing down the other party's flags; behaving very badly BEFORE the day... I freaked out. These people have some issues going on. My mates told me that it might be safer if we all just stay at home. It's a BRILLIANT idea. Very clever but... I'm going to register with my sister on March 8 – that's if my mum won't let me off. Should I be happy? "Your vote is very important to us." A brother told me that the election happened once in every 5 years back in Botswana. He asked me about this country. And I told him, "Every year". Tsk tsk. Brainless.


Anyway, saw a picture in this computer that I'm using now.

Let's have Jesus in the list instead ;)

He gave the peace that the world cannot give.

(Feb 17th) The Lovely Day :)

Hello guys. How are you all? I'm here to upload some pictures during the care group on Valentine's Day :)

I made this card for PC. Felt like doing something for her :)



And also not forgetting my sheep, Celina



... and for my best mate ;)



Cherry showed me the cake she bought for TC.



The first thing we did was to find the song sheets to paste on the board...



And me taking pictures with me sheep and ex-sheep.






Patronella with the very tall Speech!



Due to the 'concentration' I had during care group, I didn't take any pictures. Well, I was hooked up with the fun and sharing. Anyway, this is the picture taken after the care group, after the cake is brought out.
All of us prayed for TC. The shepherd is right beside him, Lemo-chan ;)



Then, it's picture time again!!

Pat, One, Jessica



two of my favourite people: Celina and Lemo



Celina, TC, Speech



Laone, Lame, and Gloria



Chedza and Patience


OH! Did I show you the birthday boy picture? Here it is...






Oh, by the way, I drank this on the night before Valentine's Day..
CAPPUCCINO ICE BLENDED WITH ICE CREAM.

SLURRRRRPPPS!!!!


p.s: Happy Belated Valentine's Day to you David Jr :)

by David Jr


Never is easy to tell someone how you actually feel,
although you can say many, many words from your mouth.

sigh.













LORD, help me to speak.

(Feb 11th) After That... And Now This :)

VINCCI was closed when I went there to buy shoes.





Chinese New Year has gone.

Er... I guess not really. The first 2 important days have gone. I didn't quite enjoy this year's celebration. As you all can already feel the "mood" I'm having now. From the previous post, I have said that my mum gave me a few pieces of new blouses. And I planned to wear one of them for the first day of new year. Sadly, I did not. But guess what? I looked through my closet and found one of the blouse I really like last year - which I haven't really wear it before. AWESOME. I got so excited that day because I have the beige colour shorts, which I love. They match :) On the first day, I received quite a lot of $$ from a few. Well, can say that I received more than last year. Hehe. I started to work in Lilic on the 2nd day itself. Because not enough worker. I was kinda ok with it because I don't usually go anywhere during the celebration. So, I worked. Until Sunday. Haha! Probably I'll get paid a lot at the end of the month ;)


Anyway, one more special event coming up soon! It's only 3 days away. And I can't believe that I haven't done anything yet. Sigh. Always being so lazy. There'll be a combine Joseph care group on the special day to celebrate TC's birthday. AWESOME. But I wonder if it'll be a memorable one. Hmmm..

(Feb 5th) TONG TONG CHIANG!

TO ALL WHO ARE CELEBRATING...








happy chinese new year from me to you ;)

argh!!
I need new shoes! Is VINCCI having sales? I saw Sis Nonofo having a collection of Vincci shoes! I must get 'em as well! They're very pretty simple, exotic, stylish. My type of shoes. It's funny I never noticed it before. Hmmm... This means LAST MINUTE SHOPPING! Yeyness. Don't know why it got me so excited :/

ATTACK!

p.s: still waiting for Jameson to bring me shopping

(Jan 31st) Something to Thank :)

You can never, never, never miss out anything about how God had blessed me in my blog Yesterday I woke up very late. No idea what time. The first thing I did was to put on the earphones to Miss 3200 and turned on FLY.FM. I heard that they are giving out Grammy Nominations cd that time, so I sent a song request. I didn't know that I've to register for it. Sigh. I did it and then DJ Steve said that we should send in our song request if we want to win the cd. I never thought of winning. I just want to listen to my favourite song. I asked for "No Air" by Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown. I haven't heard that song for quite a long time. I waited and then someone called from KL. I picked up and...


STEVE from FLY.FM CALLED!


And his voice is really energetic! I knew that I won something but he made it sounds like he's just calling me up for fun :P so, he was like asking what was I doing etc etc. Then he told me that I've won...





I screamed. That's for sure.


Hey, I was so excited. It was my first time to win a cd. I've tried many times last time but I didn't win. I was so happy. When he played the recording in the radio, I heard myself talking. YUCK!! Hate my voice. Anyway, it was really awesome that he called and told me that I won something. I never, never, never expected to win something. But one funny thing happened. He gladly say out loud that I requested for The Click Five's Jenny. C'mon! I asked for No Air. But I didn't say anything. I just kept quiet. Later on when he called again, he explained to me why he couldn't play that song :P it was really funny.


Few hours later...


My mum stepped into my room and passed me a few blouses that look very new. She told me that her friend gave her those. I tried them on and I got so excited. Know why? For this Chinese New Year, I've decided not to get any new shirts. I've 3 new pants and only planning to buy some shoes. I already planned to wear my old but new clothes. Thank God because He provided me those blouses to wear during the new year. I was so grateful to Him that I cannot stop thanking Him. I was really, really excited. Really thank God for that