OHMEEGOSH!
4 days without blogging! Oh wait, I was off on Sunday and Monday. Bwahahahaha! And then on Tuesday, where everything wrecked my freaking day! Sigh. It has been tough for the past week. Very very very tough. I know that I am weak but I managed to get by! Thank GOD. I couldn't remember how fast time passed by and in a blink of an eye, I'm back being a single lady. LOL! And of course, my heart is still unavailable for anyone.. I mean, if this is LOVE, you don't simply break up and then find someone else to fill the gap.
Many people used to say that I am like that: I lost a father's love then I go seeking for man's love to fill in my heart. Erm, am I like that? I guess not? Because when my dad's still around, I still admire loads of guys. Hehe.. I think it has became a part of my habit. But come on, as we grow older, we really look into a life with our future partner - someone you can trust, rely, love, care, grow old with!! That is everyone's dreams. I want to marry a man. I want to marry a man who love kids so we can have kids together. I want to marry a man who knows the real meaning of love and also the love of God which covers multitudes of sins!
Ahhh.. Such beautiful love. That is how I am able to love others! I tried and tried to accept the weaknesses of others. And yes, I do say "I hate her/him" at times with my babe - that is when I am super super super crazy or mad!! Probably high on drugs :PP but I really willing to forgive anyone and as long as they will change one day. After all, forgiving is hard but when you do forgive, it seems like a tiny burden just gone! You don't have to think of that person.. Because when you forgive, you just couldn't bother about this person anymore. But when you see this person you forgave, love overtakes you instead. And I experienced it. It was amazing..
Really really really really indescribably amazing ♥
So I'm alright today! That's why I am able to blog about this. I'm freaking looking forward for tomorrow - Thursday. Nothing much's gonna happen on the day but I just wanna finish my work and send all the documents to HQ -> half burden lifted up (:
The toughest thing for me at the moment is for Saturday, and Sunday to come. Because I know that it is the weekend. And which means those were the days when me and him are more available to meet.. And I gave up most of my Sundays for him to have his own family day. So........ I really don't know if I could get through those 2 days without him. But I believe I could! Believe and it will be done!! :D
All I can say to myself that God loves me very much. And I should not let any other things that bring me down to interfere with my life! Nor I should do anything to interfere with their lives. It is hard to not think or maybe send him texts but I had to stop it. I wish he would have a better life so I wouldn't be so worried.. At the same time, I wish I could erase every single memory starting December 14th.
I wish I could...... But I couldn't.
Ah well, God, in You I trust ♥ amen.
4 days without blogging! Oh wait, I was off on Sunday and Monday. Bwahahahaha! And then on Tuesday, where everything wrecked my freaking day! Sigh. It has been tough for the past week. Very very very tough. I know that I am weak but I managed to get by! Thank GOD. I couldn't remember how fast time passed by and in a blink of an eye, I'm back being a single lady. LOL! And of course, my heart is still unavailable for anyone.. I mean, if this is LOVE, you don't simply break up and then find someone else to fill the gap.
Many people used to say that I am like that: I lost a father's love then I go seeking for man's love to fill in my heart. Erm, am I like that? I guess not? Because when my dad's still around, I still admire loads of guys. Hehe.. I think it has became a part of my habit. But come on, as we grow older, we really look into a life with our future partner - someone you can trust, rely, love, care, grow old with!! That is everyone's dreams. I want to marry a man. I want to marry a man who love kids so we can have kids together. I want to marry a man who knows the real meaning of love and also the love of God which covers multitudes of sins!
Ahhh.. Such beautiful love. That is how I am able to love others! I tried and tried to accept the weaknesses of others. And yes, I do say "I hate her/him" at times with my babe - that is when I am super super super crazy or mad!! Probably high on drugs :PP but I really willing to forgive anyone and as long as they will change one day. After all, forgiving is hard but when you do forgive, it seems like a tiny burden just gone! You don't have to think of that person.. Because when you forgive, you just couldn't bother about this person anymore. But when you see this person you forgave, love overtakes you instead. And I experienced it. It was amazing..
Really really really really indescribably amazing ♥
So I'm alright today! That's why I am able to blog about this. I'm freaking looking forward for tomorrow - Thursday. Nothing much's gonna happen on the day but I just wanna finish my work and send all the documents to HQ -> half burden lifted up (:
The toughest thing for me at the moment is for Saturday, and Sunday to come. Because I know that it is the weekend. And which means those were the days when me and him are more available to meet.. And I gave up most of my Sundays for him to have his own family day. So........ I really don't know if I could get through those 2 days without him. But I believe I could! Believe and it will be done!! :D
All I can say to myself that God loves me very much. And I should not let any other things that bring me down to interfere with my life! Nor I should do anything to interfere with their lives. It is hard to not think or maybe send him texts but I had to stop it. I wish he would have a better life so I wouldn't be so worried.. At the same time, I wish I could erase every single memory starting December 14th.
I wish I could...... But I couldn't.
Ah well, God, in You I trust ♥ amen.
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