I drove pass that housing area and I met him. Dang! I never thought he'll appear anywhere in front of me. Or at that time. I wished I've never used that road. Although I could reach mum's place faster - I think. SIGH! The other day, when I was waiting in Ixora, he came to my car and smiled. Oh well, I can't deny that he got a nice smile - which can turn into an evil one, if he didn't stop smiling! I was kinda shocked why he would have the GUTS to come to me and smile. THANKFULLY I was in the car! Why? At least it didn't encourage him to talk since we weren't close anymore. He chose to stop the communication. But that also means whenever he felt like saying HI, he would. OHHHHHHHHHH wait! Something just came into my mind. His image. He wasn't looking into my eyes. I was practically staring at his face. OMG! So that's how it works? He couldn't even face me. Probably he stopped by because he thought I'd notice him.. I didn't know that it was HIM. I thought someone else just walked by to campus! Just like when you were texting your friend in the car and you felt that someone's walking pass by you. And you don't know who. Like that lar.
Right after that, it got me so emotional.
I remembered those time with him from the beginning - when he brought me to the riverside in town and asked "Can I hold your hand?" like, super many times.. And I rejected. We even walked around town. We went to Jonker Street. And there was one time he slipped his hand into my pocket to hold mine.. Hahahahaha! This is sweet okay. I don't want my friend to know that I'm in any relationship so I was trying to avoid.. Come to think of it, it was really sweet. Then, he brought me to Muar and KL few times. I really enjoyed the trip - very much.. But during the journey to Muar (second time there), he actually raised his voice and shouted at me. For some reasons, it was so hard for me to talk to him. I kept silent all the way and it hurts him. For the Nth trip to KL, I faced the same situation. We got into a fight on a Saturday night before attending a Youth service in his church. When we came back to the house, he actually went crazy and wanted to kill himself - or rather, attract my attention. So I couldn't go to sleep till 3am! I was trying to stop him from doing stupid things. I succeeded. On the next day (Sunday), we met his parents for lunch. The plan was to celebrate his birthday. But I guess that we weren't in a good mood... :(
He told me that he never brought his ex to meet his parents. He told me that his parents liked me when they invited me to visit them in their new house. His ex told me that he has never lent her any books. He told me that his ex is FAT. He told me that he wanna get married with me. His ex told me that he told her he wanted to get married with her. Out of these six things, only THREE truth and TWO remain unknown. She isn't fat! Look how fit she is! Hmph!
Ah well, good and bad memories we had.. Regretted that he had to go through too much "downs" with me because I was immature in handling relationships. Especially with the one with high emotional status.. It wasn't even love that brought us together. It was his attractive English accent and also his charisma. But nay! to his judging mentality and grumbles.
Right after that, it got me so emotional.
I remembered those time with him from the beginning - when he brought me to the riverside in town and asked "Can I hold your hand?" like, super many times.. And I rejected. We even walked around town. We went to Jonker Street. And there was one time he slipped his hand into my pocket to hold mine.. Hahahahaha! This is sweet okay. I don't want my friend to know that I'm in any relationship so I was trying to avoid.. Come to think of it, it was really sweet. Then, he brought me to Muar and KL few times. I really enjoyed the trip - very much.. But during the journey to Muar (second time there), he actually raised his voice and shouted at me. For some reasons, it was so hard for me to talk to him. I kept silent all the way and it hurts him. For the Nth trip to KL, I faced the same situation. We got into a fight on a Saturday night before attending a Youth service in his church. When we came back to the house, he actually went crazy and wanted to kill himself - or rather, attract my attention. So I couldn't go to sleep till 3am! I was trying to stop him from doing stupid things. I succeeded. On the next day (Sunday), we met his parents for lunch. The plan was to celebrate his birthday. But I guess that we weren't in a good mood... :(
He told me that he never brought his ex to meet his parents. He told me that his parents liked me when they invited me to visit them in their new house. His ex told me that he has never lent her any books. He told me that his ex is FAT. He told me that he wanna get married with me. His ex told me that he told her he wanted to get married with her. Out of these six things, only THREE truth and TWO remain unknown. She isn't fat! Look how fit she is! Hmph!
Ah well, good and bad memories we had.. Regretted that he had to go through too much "downs" with me because I was immature in handling relationships. Especially with the one with high emotional status.. It wasn't even love that brought us together. It was his attractive English accent and also his charisma. But nay! to his judging mentality and grumbles.
Sorry, MYNB, you aren't the person I wanna say "I DO" to. Although I was ecstatic you wanna marry me. But be glad because I'm not the one you ever want to live with. I don't wanna pretend to be okay when I am not - for the sake of avoiding your sympathy and your judgements.. :)
I didn't edit this picture! It so happened that when I posted this picture in my previous post, the picture appeared like that.. Hahahaha!
By the way, MYNB, she told me that you've problems.. Some problems..
I hope your "virtual" girlfriend is able to help you out. You know, my friend told me about the girl whom you're going out with. And the same girl you said you've no relationship with..
Here's a last message to you:
Stop trying to do God's job. You're not any good at it.
Stop trying to do God's job. You're not any good at it.
