Today is 10.10.10
Everyone starts off their conversation like this. I'm just following..
Many people around the world believes that it comes only once every 800+ years.
How true is that, I am not sure.
But all I know that you need to get to Year 3010 for another one.
While everyone is celebrating their marriages and dates,
I was hoping the day would never end for us in Kukup.
And I was in the car breakdown situation, so I will definitely remember this! Hehehee.. :)
The night before, Student Unit had a time of sharing.
Unit Leader asked each of us to express what is in our hearts for our unit.
I was reluctant to do so. I had plans in my head to escape.
I wanted to avoid that so much!
I am not that kind of person who reveals the heart desire in front of people.
Never the one. Never will be the one.
Okayyy, probably I would be when God changed me.
Few things I loathe about sharing in front of others:
[1]
Emotions Instability
I am very emotional, as you can refer to manyyyyy people who knows me.
I am very sensitive to words and actions, recently and currently.
But if you caused others to feel upset, then YOU ARE MEAN. That is the truth.
This morning, Kim approached me and asked me about last night's. He knew I was upset. After asking, that emotions came back. When I started to say something, he could see my face expressions are all changed! And he said this, "The next thing you're gonna do is cry". And I quickly swallow back my tears. It was really hurtful :'(
[2]
Grammar Mistakes
EVERYBODY says that my English is good. How true is that, I am not 100% sure. But I know that I could not explain/talk/share with proper grammar anymore. Is that sad? I felt as if my English is getting worse. Why is everyone facing the same thing? It is certainly weird. As it relates to "emotions", then trust me, I could not speak properly - for the mean time.
[3]
Words Usage
As above, I have admitted that I could not speak properly. I know that my English is getting worse now. And I know that I rarely use good words in my speech. I used to write and talk using simple but nice words. Now, ahhh.. So boring.
I kept using the same words all over again. It seems like they are not going to give any impact anymore :/
[4]
Nervousness
I do have stage fright. I used to be more afraid than now. If you ask me to present in front of class, sure can one. But NOT when talking in front of God's family. Because I am speaking about my life and they are all about the true facts. Must use right words so that people won't misunderstand me. Must use the right way of speaking so that people won't misinterpret the way I show my expressions. Everything!
Sigh.
I am weak, I confessed.
I am old enough to be good in public speaking, but got worse instead :(
Really gotta depend on God's wisdom and strength for all these.
As Kim had said something like this,
"Even in your weakness; in God, you will find the greatest strength".
And truly, he has never failed to encourage me with God's Words. Thanks, brother!
REWIND < <
UL began to share. All of us were feeling upset and at the same time, we feel that we really need to support our leaders more than ever. Each of us had faced difficulties and some of us cried. But it seems like when I cry, I could that I am the weakest of all. True, that is how I felt. And probably that is why I am more sensitive. We supposed to have only 45 minutes of sharing. Then we could get into the respective houses for Brothers & Sisters' sharing. Too bad, we missed it. But thankfully, we did. It was really awesome. We weren't smiling or laughing our asses off but we were sharing our heart out. We revealed our deepest thoughts about our unit. And most are for the leaders. End up, we spent almost 2 hours sitting and listening by the water..
I am truly blessed to be able to be involved in this before I leave student group.
Benjamin Life Group
I know that I have not been a real blessing to my life group.
And indeed, I am always blessed through their lives. Always encouraged!
I do have in mind that before I leave, I am going to bring an impact to them.
Amen?
Everyone starts off their conversation like this. I'm just following..
Many people around the world believes that it comes only once every 800+ years.
How true is that, I am not sure.
But all I know that you need to get to Year 3010 for another one.
While everyone is celebrating their marriages and dates,
I was hoping the day would never end for us in Kukup.
And I was in the car breakdown situation, so I will definitely remember this! Hehehee.. :)
The night before, Student Unit had a time of sharing.
Unit Leader asked each of us to express what is in our hearts for our unit.
I was reluctant to do so. I had plans in my head to escape.
I wanted to avoid that so much!
I am not that kind of person who reveals the heart desire in front of people.
Never the one. Never will be the one.
Okayyy, probably I would be when God changed me.
Few things I loathe about sharing in front of others:
[1]
Emotions Instability
I am very emotional, as you can refer to manyyyyy people who knows me.
I am very sensitive to words and actions, recently and currently.
But if you caused others to feel upset, then YOU ARE MEAN. That is the truth.
This morning, Kim approached me and asked me about last night's. He knew I was upset. After asking, that emotions came back. When I started to say something, he could see my face expressions are all changed! And he said this, "The next thing you're gonna do is cry". And I quickly swallow back my tears. It was really hurtful :'(
[2]
Grammar Mistakes
EVERYBODY says that my English is good. How true is that, I am not 100% sure. But I know that I could not explain/talk/share with proper grammar anymore. Is that sad? I felt as if my English is getting worse. Why is everyone facing the same thing? It is certainly weird. As it relates to "emotions", then trust me, I could not speak properly - for the mean time.
[3]
Words Usage
As above, I have admitted that I could not speak properly. I know that my English is getting worse now. And I know that I rarely use good words in my speech. I used to write and talk using simple but nice words. Now, ahhh.. So boring.
I kept using the same words all over again. It seems like they are not going to give any impact anymore :/
[4]
Nervousness
I do have stage fright. I used to be more afraid than now. If you ask me to present in front of class, sure can one. But NOT when talking in front of God's family. Because I am speaking about my life and they are all about the true facts. Must use right words so that people won't misunderstand me. Must use the right way of speaking so that people won't misinterpret the way I show my expressions. Everything!
Sigh.
I am weak, I confessed.
I am old enough to be good in public speaking, but got worse instead :(
Really gotta depend on God's wisdom and strength for all these.
As Kim had said something like this,
"Even in your weakness; in God, you will find the greatest strength".
And truly, he has never failed to encourage me with God's Words. Thanks, brother!
REWIND < <
UL began to share. All of us were feeling upset and at the same time, we feel that we really need to support our leaders more than ever. Each of us had faced difficulties and some of us cried. But it seems like when I cry, I could that I am the weakest of all. True, that is how I felt. And probably that is why I am more sensitive. We supposed to have only 45 minutes of sharing. Then we could get into the respective houses for Brothers & Sisters' sharing. Too bad, we missed it. But thankfully, we did. It was really awesome. We weren't smiling or laughing our asses off but we were sharing our heart out. We revealed our deepest thoughts about our unit. And most are for the leaders. End up, we spent almost 2 hours sitting and listening by the water..
I am truly blessed to be able to be involved in this before I leave student group.
Benjamin Life Group
I know that I have not been a real blessing to my life group.
And indeed, I am always blessed through their lives. Always encouraged!
I do have in mind that before I leave, I am going to bring an impact to them.
- Through my life, I want them to see how God's love really can bring a change.
- I want them not only be encouraged but receive the impact.
- I want them to bring that joy to the community
- Impart the love of God into the lives of others.
- Most of all, to see them changed and doing things that able to bring more souls for Christ!
Amen?
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