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(Aug 29th) Same Sex

Went to Human Resource Ministry on Thursday.
Was raining. Took sandwich and ate it in bus.
Again, the gurls sat close by except for Yee Chee and Angelia.
Watched Death Warrant. Thought it was boring.
But it was awesome! The actor, Jean-Claude Van Damme is not bad ;)
The others went to sleep but I watched it till the end.

Walking from the main building to the hall made me embarrassed.
It's a field trip! Not orientation. So kinda shy lar.
We were 30 minutes late for the talk.
The talks made me 'fish'.
Am glad that I finally met the Human Resource Minister.
I was talking about him during the presentation for the subject. Hehe...
Lunch was alright. Love the mango juice. Taste great!
But seriously can you imagine?
Princessca pointed out that where ever we go, the girls are always together.
It's true. Where ever we go, no males tag along. Check out Wee Ping's post.

~~Picture time was crazy~~ The girls went crazy.
Took damn lot pictures inside and outside of the building.
I think we've forgotten that we're representing MMU, the awwwsome uni.
Come to think of it, I am very embarrassed now.
Anyway, it was a great trip.
Watched Sudden Death starring the same main actor as Death Warrant.
Another great movie! Awesome.

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Before everything seperated...

top: One, Agnes, Cherry, Lemo
bottom: Speech, TC, Pai Chet, Manish, Carlos, Khumo

I so want to thank God for these people who had helped me so much!

(Aug 25th) Is it just Me?

Most of the times, I don't feel appreciated.
And sometimes, I don't care.
It hurts me many times.
But, I don't want to care anymore..
Seriously why should I even think about it? tsk tsk..

The week passed by so fast!
Yesterday was so tiring. I went to work 3 hours earlier. Hopefully the time is counted!
I failed my Labor Economics Quiz 2. So upset :(
Hm, during IR class, I was still hoping that our BIR presentation group still top the list! Today, Madam Jaya commented a lot of stuffs about the group. Oh my God. About 5-6 stuffs. I hope she's not pissed off with them :/

Yey-ness! The day to go Parliament is just around the corner! This Thursday! Going over there to have a chat with Datuk Dr. S. Subramaniam (HR Minister) and also the Director General Trades Union! Awesome! It's gonna be awesome time!

(Aug 19th) Awwwwsome!!

The Industrial Relations presentation was awesome.
The girls (us) wore blazer man!! We were looking so darn cool.
Like what Evelyn said, "Lawyers"
The formal shirt I wore is Yee Chee's and surprisingly, the shirt is nice ;)
I could hardly breathe minutes before the presentation.

And all the "what if the hair band fell out? what if the name tag couldn't stick properly? what if we shook our legs our of nervousity?" didn't happen..

After presentation, we rushed to Madam Jaya for comments. We could not end our presentation because the other class came in. So, she was commenting and then she revealed that we scored 9/10 for attire! It was awesome! That is our target and we achieved it. The only reason why we didn't score 10 because the other member (as the host) did not wear the same attire. But it doesn't matter. We got free marks and currently, our group got the highest score *yippee!* After the talk, we took pictures like crazy. Me and Suhanna took one. And she looks like my girlfriend because of her size. Haha!

bottom: Evelyn, Loi, Lee Hui
middle: Angelia, Suhanna, YY, Yee Chee, me
top: Princessca

My "girlfriend" Suhanna :)

Honestly, all of these would never happen if God isn't in control. Earlier, I skipped the first meeting because I had class. I was upset and thought that I did something wrong because to me, they looked unfriendly... I was alone. All of them are friends of each other. I was so upset that I talked about this to Shirley... During the first meeting, a girl asked the one who sat beside me to ask me something. I was quite surprised why she didn't ask me herself. But as the time pass by, we were giggling with each other... because He has humbled me to be under the Loi's leadership. The jokes we shared and how we tried our best to contact the other group member who has been skipping 2 meetings! It was hilarious and we even come together, as a group, to practice until midnight. We could just be ourselves! It was amazing.

I was in awe at how He has helped me in this group. Now, I've friends in every of my class. I don't have to fear about who to ask for guidance. God is really good. I was patient and had self-control. I did my part so no one can put blame on me. All thanks to Him. He is so good! He has been with me all the time! In every meetings, every tests, every gatherings... I always love to invite Him to join me and my friends! Lovely!

You're indeed sahabatku, Jesus... ;)

Currently listening to: PLUMB - I Can't Do This

(Aug 18th) I love You, Jesus..

When I hear this song, "YESUS" by True Worshippers, I couldn't stop myself from loving Him more.. I feel so touched by the lyrics and my heart melted..

"Yesus Kaulah sahabatku
Yesus Kau yang akan s’lalu berada di sisiku
Kau sumber kuatku
Yesus Kaulah sahabatku
Yesus Kau yang tak pernah jemu-jemu di sisiku
Kau sumber kuatku..."

Everyday without fail, I thank God for His blessing. Once I reflect back on those blessings, I filled with peace and joy. His goodness lifts me up from the ground... His kindness brought me the kind of peace in my heart... Every single minute I'll be singing praise to Him and also thank Him. Even when there are many problems in my life that I am facing now, I believe He's with me and He'll bring me through them all. Trust me, He did. And now I'm facing some challenges, I don't need any good-luck charm or some fortune cards but just Himself to be right beside me :)

When I thought of doing something which goes against His will, I'd heard a voice saying, "Twice is enough." My heart was so burdened and I felt like crying. God is with me. Immediately, the thought went away... Ish. God's great isn't He? I'm out of words to describe His love for me...

What can I say?
Yesuslah sahabatku dan selalu berada di sisiku..
Dialah yang tak jemu berada di sisiku. Terima kasih, Yesus!

p.s: tick! tock! it feels like rapture.

(Aug 15th) Tears

Today, I felt like crying.
Yesterday as well.
You know, whatever I did this week... really break my heart.
I want to apologize to few people whom I really care...

To you:
I felt so bad after hearing what you say and I don't know how to be a friend. I could just listen to you and few days ago, I can't believe that I made you sad. I felt so horrible. I almost burst into tears when I get to know that you cried. I'm awfully sorry. I should just keep quiet. Keeping things to myself. I shouldn't have care too much! But you're a very good friend. And I hope that you will share your sadness with me. Though you are happy on the outside, I can always see the sadness in your heart. Hey, don't worry about anything :) things will be ok, alright? And thanks for the rides home. I appreciate our friendship a lot. Even though you said that I am not at fault but I felt that I am. I will make it up to you.

To you:
Imagine being alone at home, wishing that someone will care for me. End up, I feel so lonely and all emo. You know, sometimes I do want people to care for me. I don't mind getting SMSes every single day from you alone. I love you and you know it. Believe me, just a caring SMS from you will make my day. When I get to know the situation you're in right now, I felt so heart broken. I always thought that you have nothing to worry about but now, you have. It has been 2 weeks since I've not seen you. I wish to meet you. Hopefully you'll come back here...

To you:
I always have things to say to you but now, all I could say is, "Sorry." I hope our friendship will be restored back to where it was before. I really hope it will! The phone calls, the stories that we shared, the laughters we had... those are now memories :( it's very sad to know that we can't be as close as before. But hey, as long as you continue to serve God faithfully in church, our relationship will still remain OK till the end ;)

To you:
I am sorry that I couldn't help you in your problem. Whenever you share with me what you've gone through there, I really wish I could do something. I wish I can help you! I tried but all I get from you is a very insulting reply. I know that you're like that but I always feel hurt when you send me such SMSes thinking that I'm stupid. But hey, I've always said that God has plans in your life. Don't doubt about His work. Whatever I said makes sense. Although you may think I sound ridiculous but I sincerely want to help you out. Hope you'll forgive me for my silliness. I need your advice sometimes, but I am afraid to talk to you... I thought we're in the 2ways relationship. Lend me your shoulders sometimes, alright :)

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It's very hard for a sister of mine to be healed from her problems but I trust in the Lord that He will guide her to the right path. Hopefully God will restore her as soon as possible.. ARGH! So many things happen this few weeks. Really a testing time for me.. testing my patience.. Lord, guide me..